So yesterday was the office dinner party. I tried to snap a couple pictures before I left - but if I set the flash - you saw a big white spot in the mirror - and if I didn't set the flash, I was lost in the shadows. I will have to get my daughter to snap a full length photo of me in my dress next time she is over.
But I did get a couple with the camera doing the reverse lens shot thing. At least you can see part of my dress! My arms weren't long enough to get ALL of me!
I'm still kinda in the shadows, ugh... some day I will buy a real camera. But I'm afraid that would become an addiction too!
Anyhow - even thought the dress didn't make the woman, I sure felt wonderful in it!
Now if only I could have remembered the eating habits that got me into the dress. I must say, I passed on the candied pecan loaded salad before dinner, but then there was the steak, salmon, fresh green beans and these breaded mashed potatoes which were baked..... I ate all the salmon and green beans, a couple bites of steak, and two of the mashed potato things (I left two). That was enough food for 3 or 4 meals. Top that off with a dark chocolate dipped strawberry and some sort of strawberry thing on a chocolate thing with some whipped cream. UGH! Not to mention dinner didn't end until 9:30. I felt like I needed to be rolled home. I over ate. UGH!
Not only did I overeat at dinner, I took my good friend out to lunch for her birthday and indulged in 1/2 a french dip and 4 sweet potato chips yesterday. The calorie count was probably 2 days worth!!! I had no idea how to count some of the stuff I ate. I just know it was BAD.
Yep - I probably shouldn't eat for the rest of the week!
Feeling..... tired AND guilty.
So this morning I saw that gremlin again --- he was saying, hit the snooze you are sooo tired, it was a really late night. You can walk after work. Sleep in. --- AND I DID!
Then he said, go ahead order lunch with the girls, it's too hot to walk in the swamp today ---AND I DID!
and now he is saying - Keep eating like you are and that dress will be in the back of the closet with all those other things you can't wear. You are not meant to be healty and trim ----AND I BELIEVE HIM
and then that little voice says --- Just stop now Barb, all will be well. You can turn this around if you stop right now. You know the drill. No more high calorie, high fat, high carb foods today. Back to the low fat meats, fresh fruit and veggies. Go home and take a walk, you will feel better. You looked smashing in that dress - and you will wear it again if you just do what you need to do. Remember - HALT - don't get too Hungry, Angry, Lonely or Tired - that's when you get into trouble. Go home, eat a small sensible meal, take a walk and then GET SOME SLEEP.
So Gremlin, be gone. I'm not listening. I got some stuff to do and it includes wearing that dress. Enough sitting here entertaining this conversation with you, I am going to quit talking AND DO SOMETHING. Can you see me shining the light into your eyes??? Go away!
Yep, I lost sight of my goal and made some bad choices. Guilty. But I am not going to wallow there until the guilt turns to shame. I'm movin on.
On a sad note, I am going to work EXTRA EXTRA hard to meet my goals for July. While I have picked up the workouts, the bad food choices seem to be holding me back this month. Five more days til weigh in. No more excuses!!!!!