Well, well, well... We meet again.
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
I've thought about this place often, but just "didn't have the time" and "wasn't in the mood" to come back and keep up with things. The mere idea, honestly, exhausted me. Excuses excuses. And yet, I sure as hell found the "time" for unhealthy habits and mindless time sucks (Damn you, Candy Crush Saga!) So if I can justify those behaviors, I can certainly find a way to spend that same time on myself, which includes becoming a more regular fixture on here once again.
It's so tricky to find that balance between mother/caretaker/wife/friend/h
elper/miracle worker without completely losing your sense of self. Tricky is the key word here, because I do know that it's possible and just requires a shift. I need to remember to practice what I preach and start living the advice I've always given others about taking care of themselves, and being of no good to anyone else if they don't look after themselves, first and foremost. No more feeling guilty for sometimes putting myself first, if it means being a better and healthier version.
I'm a little bit older, a little bit wiser, and a lot more determined than I used to be. I need to get over this mindset of a quick fix, rapid loss, short-term plan/diet, and realize this truly is a lifestyle change. Incorporating new, healthier habits, finding what works for me, and not trying to race to some distant finish line. I let things throw me off and completely derail me rather than just look at them as speed bumps and learning from them. I can't do that any longer, because I need this to happen. I need to change. I want to change. I'm going to change.
And away we go!