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Friday, May 31, 2013

Sweden is - I think - world leader in how many gastric bypass that are done on exptremely obese (in relation to population)- I have a hospital just an hours drive away that specializes in the operation and it is sometimes very tempting to apply for - my obesity is bad enough to give me acceptance for it. But the impact on the body scares me too much, I have heard too many stories about things gone wrong and met too many people who gained back what they lost - not to mention obsessive people who turned to another obsession like drugs, shopping or alcohol when eating was no longer an option.

But this morning it´s about another surgical method on the news, it is already in use in USA and a study is being made in Sweden - it´s a kind of "hose" from the stocmach to the outside and thirty minutes after eating you flush 30 % of the things you ate in the toilet. Absurd but working - AND combined with cognitive behaviour.

The interesting part was the woman interviewed (who had lost about 80 pounds in a year) that admitted she was a compulisve overeater, admitted that she was fighting hard to change her behaviour and admitted she felt stupid when people complimented her for getting thin "I did not do anything" and it is still complicated but right now I am so depressed by the effects of my overweight - AND the facts that even those negatives does not seem to help me to eat right, it makes my obsession worse instead.

I really need help!

And the other thing - I have had a big drama with a friend for three days with a lot of accusations on me not being what she thought I was etc. - I am really proud of myself because I have been very brave, loving and honest all through this. Now things seem to calm down, she seems to get proportions back, she texts that I am a very brave person and then "normal" stuff - and now my "inner child" kicks in and feels sort of abandoned. I want twenty gold medals and eternal happiness as a reward for being so strong and nice through all this...not losing temper, not getting too scared of the drama, keeping to the subject and being as loving and caring I could but still true to myself.

But now I feel empty and a little depressed. Either it is the drama queen in me wanting more or it is that early abandoned child who roars...

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  • KARA151
    You can always choose happiness, it's an inside decision not an outside one. It's dependant on you not someone else. Choose again. That's what I tell myself during the day when feeling rotten.
    2385 days ago
  • DSJB9999
    Take care of yourself!

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    2386 days ago
    I remember when I was very young, there was an obesity treatment that consisted of wiring a patient's jaw shut so they could only ingest food through a straw. In theory, they would only consume the medically prescribed nutritional drinks and rapidly lose weight. It doesn't seem medical science has advanced very far from that point.
    2386 days ago
    It's so hard to keep cool when a friend is upset with you. emoticon
    2386 days ago
    Be careful before selecting surgery to lose weight. It can be very successful if you have the mindset needed to keep the process from reversing itself.
    2386 days ago
    There are people addicted to drama; where there is none, they will stir it up. They don't seem to know how to function without it. A different way of getting an adrenalin rush I guess. I'd see it in alanon, the non alcoholic that has trouble functioning with a spouses sobriety. It may be something to explore in your program and with your sponsor Cecelia. You should feel good about keeping your cool.

    I lost my best friend to cancer before she turned 50. Obese since childhood she had had the stomach stapling surgery--this is at least 20 years ago. Eating made her very sick; she learned how much she could eat, eating more often and regained all the weight. I would not take the risks, if nothing changes; nothing changes. I can't imagine the "stomach flushing" surgery. The risk of infection alone would stop me. Not to mention that unless you do it forever, if nothing changes/nothing changes and the weight is bound to come back again. It truly does take a lifestyle change. But that doesn't rule out treatment for depression and other issues. Help will not come to you, you have to seek it out. Hugs.
    2386 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Plus a GOOD FOR YOU!!! for staying true to yourself and being a kind and loving friend!

    Surgery for obesity will never be for me. I actually started the program at Mayo Clinic to undergo lap band surgery and the more I learned, the more I didn't want to do it. I didn't like the idea of altering my anatomy and as it was abdominal surgery and not brain surgery, I was very fearful I would regain the weight.

    2387 days ago
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