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Dealing with worry

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Antoher wet blanket over my life has been my dealings with the tax authorities that started last summer, It has been days and weeks with nothing and I have started to calm down and then - WHAM! another inquiry or message that has stirred all my panic and despair, thrown me into suicidal mode and overall gave me a hopeless future...

In the middle of april - after months of nothing - I got a letter with "suggestions" for a verdict - none in my favor. Threw me into despair and crying and a lot of stress. My face excema got worse, bingeing got worse... I had until tenth of may to answer and when I wrote my arguments I had that hopeless feeling that nobody would listen - and then in some sudden insight I realised "Ok then I will get their decision, I will somehow find the money to pay it as I have always done and I will go on with my life.

Yesterday I got that feared envelope - decided not to open it as I was going to rehearsal and did not want to be a hysterical wreck - but it was in the back of my mind and red spots occured under my eye... had forgotten about it last night, remembered this morning, took a deep breath and opened it.... and if you think this is a sunshine story you are wrong - they had not bothered at all about my arguments, yes! I am BITTER! and they have decided that I should pay a lot of money.

But the thing is tha my worry disappears at once. I realise that the money I got for the lecture last week (that was supposed to be a contribution to the ne heating I have to install in my houwe) together with scraping my accounts, will make me able to pay them. And I will pay them and move on. I will not bother to try to appeal, I will just be very very clever when I make my declaration for 2012 (this was 2011) and make sure everything is 100 procent correct.

It is all very unfair and I hereby declare that my solidarity with the state is for the moment nonexistent - if I am given the chance to hide some money for them I will - because they really punished me for nothing this time!

And now I am going to a performance with the theatre...todelooo!
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    I hope that you are able to move on from this unfairness that you are forced to deal with.

    God bless!

    2497 days ago
    Sorry to hear about the tax problems. I am glad that you met the problem head on though and have started moving on from it.

    One of the phrases my one manager had was "Moving forward....." after something has happened. It has helped me get through some difficult times.
    2507 days ago
    Time to face your demon straight on and get on with your life. Good wishes coming your way.
    2508 days ago
  • OOLALA53
    I am so grateful you feel you have the means to take care of this. I haven't had problems with taxes, knock on wood, but was in a mild depression (not full blown, but still very uncomfortable) for a few months twice in the last couple of years over money losses, and I'm not even in terrible shape. I've never been a big spender and saved my money well, then lost in investments. Even today, I'm feeling stressed because I have to call about a home loan that got transferred-- not my doing--, and now I have to follow up.

    Do whatever you can to protect your income and your peace.

    Do you at least get free health care? I hope so.
    2508 days ago
    Glad you have it covered and are moving on. Don't do anything to put yourself at further risk. Seems the tax people are the most powerful in government; and the least sympathetic. You will get through this too. Be well. emoticon
    2508 days ago
    I've been through similar situations and have to say that there is very little in life as stressful as dealing with the tax people. And they always seem to go after the little guy - makes no sense to me.
    2508 days ago
  • CAMAEL100
    So hard dealing with bureaucracy especially when they don't feel they have any obligation to listen to you or in any way answer of even justify themselves.

    2508 days ago
    I truly sympathise. Often have a pile of envelopes on my 'post table' in my hall waiting for the right mood and space to deal with them. Glad you've made the best of a bad situation - though very sorry that you've had to and double sorry for the troubles it has all caused you. Congratulations for not letting it all stop your rehearsal schedule.

    As you say - move on and find a way to 'get them back' when and if you can.
    2508 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/18/2013 4:58:12 AM
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