Sunday, April 21, 2013
So here I am, it's been a year almost to the day since I last logged in. And I hadn't been consistent then for like probably another year or so before that. I'm about 10-15 pounds heavier than I was this time last year, and at my heaviest. Many of my old spark friends have either deleted their accounts or else their last log in was a year or two or three ago. Once quite active in this community, I now feel like I've arrived at the wrong party and feel somewhat disconnected and uneasy.
I'm not sure how much I'm ready to commit right now. I'm still super busy and still struggling with coming to terms with what I need to give up in order to earn and create the outer body that matches the me I am inside. I know that if I try to do it all right now I will likely soon give up, yet I don't want to do too little and not get enough results to continue to motivate me.
It's only been a few days, but my body can already feel the difference my (modified) workouts are making. I have always had fairly responsive muscles and for that I am grateful. Even though there is way more stomach going on than I'd like right now, I am glad at the muscle tone redeveloping in my biceps and hamstrings, and even the core strength stealthily growing beneath that large layer of trying to cope with some challenging but necessary life changes. Not sure how I forgot that true self-care is fueling oneself healthily and keeping oneself limber and active. Well, actually I have an idea of how I forgot that, but that's a post for another day....:)
Glad to be here in any case.