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Monday, April 08, 2013

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It takes a lot of courage to show your dreams to
someone else.

Erma Bombeck

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My constant dream througout my life has been to become impeccable. When I was thinking about the englsh word I realised that it was not perfect, but impeccable. WHat is the difference in my mind?

Perfect to me means that I incarnate some sort of ideal personality, while impeccable means that I can´t be critizised... to me it means that the later is meant to protect me from being attacked while the first stands alone and has not that much to do with other people....

The dream to be impeccable means that I am safe from judgement. A very boring dream because who cares really? "There is a crack in everything, that is where the light gets in" I should cherish my cracks, but they are hard to live with because they make me feel unsecure because I am not sure if I´ll survive with them.

Just some random thoughts on a tuesday morning...

Yesterdays fasting went well, had soup with mussels - bought them friday and managed to keep them alive in my fridge. But the soup was greyish and not appetizing althoughit did taste okay, in the future I think I will stick with canned mussels, much easier to plan and handle..ah, now I now, some tomato paste added after frying the onion would have made the soup much more beautiful!

Going swimming before breakfast and work this morning but my energy level so far is low.
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    Interesting ~ I will ponder this.

    2412 days ago
    You have me thinking now.
    2413 days ago
  • DEBRA0818
    I used to feel petrified of criticism - I would literally feel like I'd just gotten caught stealing or something, practically on the verge of fainting. I'm not sure of all the reasons why this was so, but it made me a perfectionist on the outside and a secret binge eater on the inside. The irony was the secret eating was having a very public effect (in the form of fat) which caused a constant criticism. I was drawing toward myself the very thing I feared virtually 24 hours a day. What I love about the 12 steps is that working them has gradually detached me from this defect in my character (and allowed me to see it as a defect without flinching). In the end, I had to agree with the AA saying: "What other people think about me is none of my business."
    2414 days ago
    So our world is guided by what others think, thereby shrouding who you truly are? Not a criticism, not a judgment, but a rhetorical question for your perusal. And quite personally, I think you'd be better off as pristine :) Have a beautiful day!
    2414 days ago
    To be safe from judgment also means that you don't get the praise, admiration, and support. I think that you are a wonderful, inspiring, beautiful person BECAUSE of all of your cracks. I look forward to reading your blogs and seeing how you have been. You inspire me to keep up the work even when I am tired and feel like just retreating into my comfort zone.

    Erma Bombeck was a very wise woman!
    2414 days ago
    I wish for you a wonderful day!

    I had a long walk with my daughter this weekend; talked about anxieties; we both have them. Her conclusion is that we overthink everything. I can't argue with that. It's only a problem when it interfers with something I want to do. That is only occasionally. I don't think any of us is safe from criticism; those cracks are part of the human condition. Be well.
    2414 days ago
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