Sunday, March 31, 2013
...or at least half of it:
There are a couple of things I have vainly tried to change for most of my life. One of them is how chaotic my home always is. It seems impossible for me to find a way to constantly have a neat and welcoming home. I am surely motivated and have tried many things - learned how to clean, bought great tools, made wonderfuls schemes, analysed on what level I want to be, used feng shui. I have gotten rid of all things that clutter, I have enough storage room and good storage equipent, I have made schedules, I have rewarded myself etc. etc. I think FLylady is a genius but even her great method would not work for me... so I kind of thought it is just not in my genes...
With one exception - I have never had any trouble keeping things in order when I have shared my living quarters. As a student, in a commune or even in a relation – I have always done my share of the cleaning and it has never been a problem.
And the insight that struck me the other day was that it has worked absolutely without effort. I don´t have to motivate myself or organize or get my act togeter or reward or visualize - it just works.
Conclusion - I am not “by genes” a person who can´t keep a clean house.
I learned many years ago that somehow I will not give myself the care and consideration I give others - I have even tried to think of a way to use that truth to get my own life better cleaned - but I haven´t realised that I don´t even have to try to keep it tidy when I am with others. It just works. Which means that I have it in me. It is part of my personality. Why it is so impossible to me to make it work for me is a mystery.