AOmetimes I comment on spark friends blog with a simple
Either because I lack experience of the subject or I have nothing intelligent to share or I feel that my words might be too pretentious. But when I do think it is appropriate and my contribution might be of value I try to give comments that helps.
And so have my spark friends to my blog of yesterday (not only then, but it became so obvious to me when I read ysteradys comments) The comments really helps - somethimes because of the good advice but more because of the experience shared that shows me I am not alone in this.
And friend Pudlecrazys experience about how walking helps her to deal with anxiety suddenly made me remember that I have use that too. AND - in opposite to what I believed - I have had trouble with anxiety before cancer and before this situation with my daughter. Back in late eighties I used to wake up at night, heart punding and unable too sleep. Sheer panic. I went out walking, I had a round that was about sven kilometres and I walked that and afterwards I could fall asleep again - a few times I had to do two rounds. I had an afghan hound at that time and he was my "alibi" - i was sometimes passed by cars on that small gravel road I wlaked and those people must have wondered about that crazy lady roaming around in the night... the dog gave me an excuse...
The two later sessions with panic atacks has been "Normal" - I have known why they occur but that early one was seemingly without reason. Or maybe not, those were the days when I was about to start my newspaper and the plunge into the unknown life of an entrepreneur with employees was scary.
Anyway - the attacks stopped after a month or so.
My problem today is that I cannot walk, my feet are to bad. My butt hurts too much from the indoor bike, maybe I should get a rowing machine I think that would feel nice also, I love to use my back and shoulders. But I don´t really have room in my house for it so I´ll might use something like this:
...which I already have but don´t use.
Well, anyway I just want to express my gratitude to all spark friends who rads and comment on my blogs - as well as those who write wonderful blogs themselves for me to get inspiration and support from!
Yesterday I went to the theatre - The Diary of Anne Frank" - a performance that was good enough (amateur ensemble) to write a good review on. AND reminiding me that there are worse things than not being exactly where yu would like to be in life... still have one article left to write this beautiful sunday, postponed since friday, bu tanyway... and I came up with a good melody for one of my old texts, after writing that article I will reward myself by trying to record that song in garageband.