Friday, March 22, 2013
As I sit here eating a breakfast of 3 turkey bacon slices, 2 hard boiled egg whites, a cup of sliced mixed fruit, an english muffin, and a cup of decaf coffee...
So yes that is my breakfast and I'm writing this while I eat it thinking how much more weight am I going to gain? I'm pregnant yes I know and everyone keeps reminding me BUT I am only half way through my pregnancy and have gained 20lbs. I already started "overweight" at 145lbs and now I'm 165. I'm due in August and am only expected to grow bigger.
I walk 2-3 days a week for an hour each time. I do yoga 1 day a week for an hour. I eat healthy for the most part. Honestly I'm still eating the way I did before I got pregnant. Yes It's my first and yes expect to gain more this time than the next ones blah blah blah that's what I keep hearing.
Seriously it's hard on me. The people I've been talking to aren't understanding where I'm coming from. To lose 85lbs since 2010 and now see the scale creeping up again it's scary. I hear so many stories of people having difficulty losing the baby weight and only gain more. Yeah I'm enjoying my pregnancy and how I'm creating a little boy in my body that isn't an issue. The issue is having to buy new clothes again bc mine are getting small. The issue is weighing myself weekly to make sure I stay on track. The issue is having gained 20lbs with in 4 months. The issue is how much more am I going to gain?!
Man this little boy I'm going to have will have to watch me work out while he is in his little jumper seat. he will be watching his mom eat fruits and salads. He will see her skinnier and try to tighten her body again because that's what I want to have after I give birth.