Please dont tell me....
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
So I've been going to the gym for two weeks now and I must say that I am doing pretty well, looking back over my fitness minutes for the month of march so far I feel like I am kicking some butt. Last week I went to the gym, mon, wed, thurs, fri and sun. This week is starting out the same, I am usually at the gym for an hour. While my hubby is supportive he is driving me NUTS! I have told him time and again that right now the gym is not fun, its not enjoyable, its stressful, and makes me anxious. I told him after some time it will be second nature and the gym will be someplace i enjoy going and will be fun but not when its all so new to me. Every night that I leave to go to the gym he says the same thing, Have fun enjoy your workout. I want to scream at him to please stop telling me that, this is something I HAVE to do to be healthier this is not something I enjoy yet. I mean someone please tell me that you feel the same that the gym is not fun right away its a personal challenge for me to go. Every night my stomach is in knots and I dont like being there its alot of horrible feelings, but 45 mins into my workout and its all changed I feel good and have energy and feel healthier. I almost feel as though its my bodys last ditch effort to keep the unhealthy lifestyle continuing, my minds last card up the sleeve. Everynight I go its me telling myself to back the F**k off so I can be where I want to be and where my family NEEDS me to be. I deserve to be healthy and each hour so fitness is me proving that I do.
Anyways this kinda got away from me but all in all the message is clear I HATE THE GYM RIGHT NOW .... LOL at least I hate the first 15 mins.