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Fighting with Myself

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

I'm trying so hard to keep myself motivated. To keep myself pushing but I'm just sliding off.

In December I was so happy because I lost 40lbs. 6 weeks later I've lost a WHOOPING 5lbs.

Its not my body. I'm not at a plateau. I just am not trying. I bagged most of my old pants. I even bought a bunch of size 9/10 and medium shirts to help motivate me to lose another size. I got a membership to the gym a couple weeks ago.

Maybe too much temptation in my home?

I'm struggling. I'm doing my best to hand in there. I have to believe that if I poke and push hard enough that I will finally stumble into something.

I'm going to plan my meals and pack some early lunches before I hit the gym. Maybe swimming. I love to swim and maybe it will help motivate me to keep my nutrition in check. That has been my problem. My eating habits are horrible lately. My drive to lose weight has been lackluster. I look in the mirror and I see so many "flaws".

Maybe I just need a daily dose of sparkpeople to keep me in check.

Would be nice when the Girls Scouts stop selling thin mints in the grocery store!!!!!!!
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    I'm having the same problem. I am having a hard time finding things about myself that I like. Not liking myself isn't much of a motivator. But I've decided that I will never find anything unless I change some things to be the way I like them. I don't like my belly, so I'm gonna lose it. I don't like not playing with my kids because I get winded, so I'm working on that. Unfortunately though, I bought two boxes of cookies this year. I can't help it, they're girl scout cookies.
    2553 days ago
    Hang in there you're at that bump in the road...sometimes we get slouchy or just tired of working out, eating right and be conscientous. Shake yourself and get on with it...you've come to far to stop now. Remind yourself of why you started this and as I do sometimes, read my old blogs. Also I find that when I'm sparking, I stay on track, so ...
    2554 days ago
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    emoticon You CAN do this! You have done such a GREAT job :D one step at a time and soon you will be back on track :D
    2555 days ago
    If your workout/food menu lack luster, fix it. The power is in YOU to stay on your journey. emoticon
    2555 days ago
    Good News! You are normal! Take a look at my page (i borrowed a few ideas) and most Sparkers and you will see that everyone battles. It may take a while but if you persist, you will find something that works for you. As soon as I think I've got it, wham...my body and my mind tell me differently. Read, study, inform yourself and fight with all you've got and then rest. Its more a mind game than losing weight. Maybe trying to just maintain for a while working on emotions and emotional eating and then move on. You can do this! Keep Sparking!
    2555 days ago
    Believe it. Accept nothing less.

    Hang in there honty...FOCUS the mind and the body WILL FOLLOW.
    The mind is your strongest DEFENSE.
    I think of all the things that MOTIVATES me...the good and the bad.
    Not regainign weight and my friends/coworkers backbiting about how fat I
    Being able to slide into clothes and look and FEEEL FANTASTIC (to myself).
    Improved health.
    FEELING "sexy".
    FEELING STRONG...being stronger, quicker, lighter on my feet, being able to endure all day long WITH ENERGY.
    GENUINE self confidence building as I take/keep it off.
    Looking forward to springtime and shedding the winter layers.
    Feeling good about wearing no sleeves, back/shoulder outs...and other semi revealing clothes with pride and NO SHAME.
    All the positive attention I get from my self improvement and keeping it up. PEOPLE NOTICE.

    I find having A WEEKLY GOAL is important to my success. Something to focus and work toward too EVERYDAY.
    I LOOK FOR MOTIVATION every single day. I promised myself to FIND IT and HANG ON TO IT this year. (so far so good)

    I stopped thinking about it in terms of mostly vanity...but now I think that I AM WORTH IT. Even though it is not easy...and I have my moments/days I just want to go off the wagon...I have already TRIED THAT and I was not happy. So I keep my shrinking but on the beaten path and KNOW at the end of it is THE PRIZE...and again I AM WORTH IT.
    2555 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/20/2013 2:52:39 PM
    Don't get discouraged. I have just overcoming a period of unmotivated behavior. It's crazy we know what to do but just can't seem to get it together. Sounds like you have a good plan to get back on track. Best of luck to you emoticon
    2555 days ago
  • no profile photo CD9808576
    First and foremost, you are beautiful with all your flaws. They make you special. It happens to slag off sometimes. Just pick yourself back up and push forward. Planning is definitely important
    2555 days ago
  • JENNA3
    I totally understand the issues of motivation and just not trying. What worked for me was finding something new to do-hiking, camping, swimming-anything you haven't done before or regularly. I find that trying something new makes it more exciting again.

    As for temptation in the home-that I can identify with. My husband went out yesterday and bought me a box of crackers, a bag of chips, a cheese log, and a jar of salsa. emoticon I know he means well, but only the salsa fits well into my plan. So I'll offer the cheese to the kids (they love it). I'll have the crackers-exactly one serving at a time-with my laughing cow cheese instead. He'll eat the chips if I leave them long enough. And the salsa will be great with my morning eggs or some chicken.

    Plan around the temptation and get yourself something healthy that's also a treat.

    HTH and keep trying. emoticon
    2555 days ago
    You know, I have noticed that sometimes there is a big lag between my brain and my body. I keep making progress only to then have my mind help to sabotage myself....what is it? does a part of me not really want it enough? am I afraid of the next step? or do I look at myself ans secretly think wow I look good and maybe I don't really think I need to lose more? You and I both know that maybe each of these things has a little bit of truth in it but it's not the whole thing either...so, why is it so hard?

    You are so smart to fight against it....a dose of sparkpeople....a dose of exercise that you love and something I would suggest....a dose of positive self talk. When you look in that mirror, instead of focusing on the flaws (there's always something we won't like) focus instead on what you have changed....pat yourself on the back for that! Tell yourself how strong, beautiful, and smart you are....You are....I know it seems goofy to do it but maybe part of what our mind does to us is to get us thinking negatively and that just pulls us down.

    Be strong!!
    2555 days ago
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