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Monday, February 11, 2013

I am gonna lay it on the line: I am the slowest person in my training program. The messages that I tell myself about this are awful:

I am holding the group back.
I am just not a runner.
Who did I think I was even trying it?
I never was athletic.
I was always the slowest at everything.
I still am.
No one ever wanted me on their team.
I should have just gone it alone.

Here are some facts: When I started the 5km Sparkpeople training, I didn't make it the 1st time. I accomplished it about 5 months later on the second attempt. It wasn't always easy. Sometimes, I couldn't complete the run times, most of the time I could. Once, I could do it the first run of the week, not the second, & yes on the third.
Someone is going to be the fastest & someone is going to be the slowest in any group. Out there, there is someone faster & someone slower than both of those.
What would a good friend say?
It's what my boyfriend did say: I don't think it's about being the fastest or the slowest, it's about completing it.
He keeps telling people about what I'm doing. I think he is proud of me.
I am scared. It brings up all of those past humiliations from school and life. It brings up the feeling that I just don't belong.
I do usually feel pretty ecstatic after each session. I can't believe I'm still going.
No matter what, I am way better off than if I didn't try at all.
It is fun to have this goal.
I need to look at what my "inner athlete" can say too, or maybe my "inner life coach" and what about all of the Sparkpeeps who are each dealing with their own demons & angels along this path?
For now, I'm off to pilates for a bit of cross training.
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    One of the sayings I love : no matter how slow you go you are till lapping everyone still sitting on the couch!

    The way I look at it is if I am the slowest in the group or last in the race I am helping someone else meet his/her goal of not being the last person. It's a community service lol emoticon

    2836 days ago
  • TEEBEE44
    Way to go! You'll rock it and you'll be so proud!
    2852 days ago
    You will ROCK IT! And your boyfriend is right; focus on completion and at the finish line, it won't matter what your final time is, just that you DID IT!!

    Run on, girl!
    2852 days ago
  • HEATHER1969
    I did the Sun Run Training quite a few years ago... Its tough but I KNOW that YOU CAN DO THIS!


    Its not about how fast or slow, its just about you doing it! WHO CARES what anyone else is thinking... just know that WE are all on your side and we are CHEERING emoticon YOU ON!

    Being scared is ok but just know that you are lapping all of those people who are still on the couch! YOU ARE emoticon
    2852 days ago
    I needed to read this! You're doing great, Gail. Keep it up! You're inspiring to me!
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    2852 days ago
    Thanks for your honesty. I think you need to start listening to your inner athlete more. You can do it!
    2852 days ago
    Way to go on your training. You can definitely do this.

    I have also decided to do the Sun Run but have to get in a whole lot more work in to be ready for April 21st.
    2853 days ago
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