How do I get my groove back?
Monday, February 04, 2013
The road to hell is paved with good intentions, or at least that's what my mother would tell me as a kid. Seems like she was right all along. I had great plans for the beginning of the year... how much have I accomplished, you ask? ZERO, nothing, nada. Ok so I got sick, and ok, so I broke up with my old gym but that shouldn't mean that I have an accumulated ZERO intentional fitness minutes for the year!
I am appalled that I have gotten back up to my starting weight. I can't believe that I have no motivation to get out of bed to work out in the morning. I get home at night and sit on the couch wishing that I had the energy and motivation to heft my giant @$$ off the couch and do something. But instead I am sad that I haven't done it. I miss spring and warm weather. I miss riding my bike everywhere and enjoying it. I know I can make things work if I can just start a habit.
Every day the alarm goes off at 5am and I get out of bed to snooze it. It's dark and cold, so I plug in my space heater (because my apartment is beyond cold in the mornings and the property managers are super cheap) and I always wind up back in bed trying to warm up. After snoozing the alarm for 15 minutes, I reset it for 6am. Every. Day. I don't know how to fix that other than to wait for spring. But I want to be in ok shape by spring so that's not going to work for me.
I still haven't signed up for the new gym... it's just in the next suite from my office and yet, the thought of going over and plopping down cash for something I am less than motivated to use seems insane.
I don't know how to get my mojo back but I know I hate my body and how it feels but somehow that's not enough to make me change. Maybe if it didn't take me the better part of a year to lose 15 lbs and could see some change it wouldn't be so hard. I am going to las Vegas in just over a month and that isn't motivation.
I don't know. Maybe something will give me an ah-ha moment. Until then I will be quietly lurking in the shadows.