Wow, It's Been Awhile
Monday, January 21, 2013
I haven't been online since December 25th, 2012. All I have to say is wow, it's been quite a ride from then until now. My boyfriend of 4 years broke up with me Nov. 30th. It left me an absolute mess, and I never felt worse about myself. From Nov. 30th, until about 3 weeks ago, I had lost a whopping 20 pounds. I starved myself, and I purged. I am now ready to lose weight again after gaining 10 of those pounds back from a straight two and a half weeks of constant binging and purging from New Years until now. I have really been working on putting myself back together. I know what I did was incredibly unhealthy and I plan to lose the weight this time, the healthy way. Although I was broken, I fixed myself. I am back on my feet and happier than ever. The break up taught me that I can be happy alone, and helped me get rid of my fears. I am now fearless and am ready to tackle spring semester. I can't wait to go back to college! I plan to get down to 130 pounds, and am so excited for spring break to flirt with lots of cute guys ;). But I'm so confident, I will start that as soon as I am back. I am so happy to be free. I feel so beautiful even though I am 20 pounds over the weight I'd like to be. So I'm giving myself a round of applause for getting through one of the hardest, most trying times of my life. I am SUCH a stronger person because of it all. If you look through my photo gallery, you will see how quickly I shrank due to my month long bout with anorexia/bulimia. Although I looked great, I was slowly ruining my body and am lucky I did not end up in the hospital. I am so grateful I realized what I was doing before it was too late. I hope to get back to as good as I look in the thinner pictures of myself, doing it the healthy way :). My biggest goal for myself is to study hard and make the Dean's List.