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Wow, It's Been Awhile

Monday, January 21, 2013

I haven't been online since December 25th, 2012. All I have to say is wow, it's been quite a ride from then until now. My boyfriend of 4 years broke up with me Nov. 30th. It left me an absolute mess, and I never felt worse about myself. From Nov. 30th, until about 3 weeks ago, I had lost a whopping 20 pounds. I starved myself, and I purged. I am now ready to lose weight again after gaining 10 of those pounds back from a straight two and a half weeks of constant binging and purging from New Years until now. I have really been working on putting myself back together. I know what I did was incredibly unhealthy and I plan to lose the weight this time, the healthy way. Although I was broken, I fixed myself. I am back on my feet and happier than ever. The break up taught me that I can be happy alone, and helped me get rid of my fears. I am now fearless and am ready to tackle spring semester. I can't wait to go back to college! I plan to get down to 130 pounds, and am so excited for spring break to flirt with lots of cute guys ;). But I'm so confident, I will start that as soon as I am back. I am so happy to be free. I feel so beautiful even though I am 20 pounds over the weight I'd like to be. So I'm giving myself a round of applause for getting through one of the hardest, most trying times of my life. I am SUCH a stronger person because of it all. If you look through my photo gallery, you will see how quickly I shrank due to my month long bout with anorexia/bulimia. Although I looked great, I was slowly ruining my body and am lucky I did not end up in the hospital. I am so grateful I realized what I was doing before it was too late. I hope to get back to as good as I look in the thinner pictures of myself, doing it the healthy way :). My biggest goal for myself is to study hard and make the Dean's List.
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  • KELLIEBEAN
    I'm so glad to see you say you feel beautiful even though you are 20 pounds heavier and that you can be happy on your own. That is wonderful.

    I went through this with my daughter. She has come a long way but she still has to deal with issues every now and again to keep herself healthy.

    I will second what susanneelaine said, please make sure you talk to someone when you feel overwhelmed again

    You are beautiful! I am so happy for the progress you have made!
    2626 days ago
  • SUSANELAINE1956
    First off, I just want to say that you are a beautiful young lady. I'm so glad that you are focused on a healthy lifestyle now. My niece battled with anorexia in high school, getting down to 87 pounds at 5'8". She ended up in the hospital and eventually went thru a couple of years of therapy. She is doing better now, but she has a couple of issues that will be with her for life as a result of the damage she did to her body. If you start feeling any of that again, I hope you will get help. Your college health department would be a good place to start.

    Yes - study hard and make the Dean's list! That's a great goal and something that will benefit you in so many ways. Your combination of beauty, brains, confidence, and happiness will take you far. Good luck!
    2626 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/21/2013 7:32:06 PM
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