Word of the Year 2013
Thursday, January 03, 2013
CHOOSE: v. Decide on a course of action, typically after rejecting alternatives
There are many things that I struggle with.
I struggle with depression.
I struggle with the word “should”.
I struggle with finding the balance between remembering and moving forward.
I struggle with the difference between ideal and real.
I struggle with the feeling of being overwhelmed & I then struggle with a tendency to shut down in response to those stressors.
In 2013, I am going to focus on all of my stressors, and my reactions to them, by focusing on one simple word.
I am going to remind myself that while I cannot control everything about the world around me, I do control how I CHOOSE to react to the world around me. Focusing on choosing won’t necessarily mean that I will always make good choices, but I will choose one way or the other. Refusing to choose has been a common theme throughout my life. I frequently avoid making a decision (aka: choosing what to do), and simply allow things to happen to me as a result; feeling like things are then happening to me outside of my control, rather than things happening because I chose to make them happen. Lack of control frightens me (I have been called a control freak on occasion), but making the wrong decision also frightens me. The thing that scares me the most of all is the thought that I will make a choice, but then fail in executing that decision. Failing because you didn’t try isn’t nearly as bad as failing because you actually couldn’t do it, right?
And that is the mind set I am going to focus on changing this year as I choose the path my life will take.
It’s not about what I will choose. It’s simply that I will choose.