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Holiday ramblings

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

As I sit here ready to blog i'm really not sure what I want to say. I mean the holiday is upon us and over with here. I've really not done what I should of but a very lot of what I wanted....that is in the food department. I did get in the exercise and I know in my heart that isn't going to fix anything that i've done. I don't know could we......

Ok maybe not. I will not lie to you or myself. I ate my weight in junk these last couple of days. Now I never set out to do anything special but staying in countrol of myself would of been a start. But that didn't happen. Really what happened was I pretty much just gave up on my goals. I even went through the blogs of others looking to see if anyone was feeling as guilty as me over what I had and have done to myself this past year. Nope....not a one. All I found was "I reached my goal, or I lost 50 pounds, or 360 days on track" really???? What is wrong with me that I can't even get the one day. I mean it is just one little day. Day one is the day when the momentum is picked up and the ball starts rolling. When you see yourself thin and you are willing to do all that you can to see your goals reached. I had a great couple of weeks and then I allowed this holiday and all the things I know darn well I can't have with any kind of control control me and my stomach. I say my stomach because right now i'm feeling a bit emoticon And not in a very good way. YUCK is a word that comes to mind.

So what do I plan to do about this? What steps do I plan to take to make it happen. You know the IT i'm talking about...yup the IT that happened to all those sparkers that blogged on here. The goals reached, the days in a row of success, the happy warm feeling you get when you step on the scales and see that magic number reached. Yup I'm talking about IT....the dream. Well I won't sit here and tell you that I have a plan, because right now I don't. Oh I have the food plan, it is the other plan i'm' refering to....what happens when that food is in my reach, what happens when I want it but I know that one bite is going to undo all my hard work. Nope I have not one plan for that yet. I just have to begin and get this ball rolling. Once it is rolling i know each new day will bring me a bit of strength that one day will see me say "No thank-you I don't eat that anymore". Hey a girl can dream. But for now I just want to..... Just wake me when the new year is upon us....

I can't do that either....I need to be awake to see this through. I need to sit and decide what it is i'm searching for and wanting from all this. because right now I just want to beat me up and I know that isn't the thing to do. So this holiday i'm really looking forward to the one gift I can give myself. The gift of health. So heres to good health and wiser choices....
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    Alright my dear friend, you are being too hard on yourself. Okay, I know you aren't where you want to be right now, but take a good look at what you DO accomplish. You are still here, you are still trying and you ARE going to win this war. I know you read a lot of blogs about the great success others have had, and while I know you are happy for them, I know you wonder, "why not me? why can't I do that?" For some reason we continue to sabotage our own efforts and stand in our own way. We don't have to. You are most definitely not alone in finding that this journey to health is a struggle. I need to learn that I too cannot exercise self control over the junk food so I don't need to put it in my mouth in the first place. We can do this. there are always going to be setbacks, but the reasons to keep trying are going to far outweigh the reasons to give in.
    I have faith in you.
    2782 days ago
    nothing wrong with enjoying ourselves every now and again...not daily, but once in a while.
    2782 days ago

    I'm wishing you can find a way to not be so hard on yourself.
    My best strategy is to distract myself and get away from the kitchen as far as I possibly can. Get busy, my friend.

    You can do this!!!
    2782 days ago
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