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Wednesday, December 19, 2012

this is really yesturdays blog but i was so stressed,in pain,down etc,etc that i thought it was better to wait till i was on a more even keel to post it.to be honest life is getting me down abit but even though i am down i am by no means out.i have had enough of going 3 times a week for my irn test,i am lonely without lotfi,even though my face is alot better than it was it still bothers me at times like today for example.lotfi also said it looks left side looks abit swollen when he saw it on skype today.i am tired as i have had very little sleep theese last few days with ayman feeling ill and i seem to have not enough time in the day.monday morning had my irn test,afternoon was at the dermatologist for ayman he says he has extreem allergic exzeema and we had to go to the skim hospital next day so tuesday was fast the whole day at the skin hospital.they wanted to keep ayman in there and there but because of his age i would have to stay with him they said(not that i wouldn´t have stayed with him anyway,lol)told them it wasn´t possible yet as lotfi is not here and the other two kids have school.so asked can we do it in the school holidays as my sil is off work and zakariya and ayyub can go and stop with her while i am in the hospital with ayman.so ayman is now due to go into hospital 27th of december and the dr said i should expect him to be in for at least 5 days so looks like i will be seeing new year in in a hospital room.all they will be doing is treated his skin while he is there(he scratches all the time and his constantly bleeding i am often awake with him in the night as he is in so much pain.he hates me putting on his cortizone cream as it hurts so i have a real battle with him that i end up crying along with him but he needs the cream.he also has an antihistermine medicine to take at night as well.re what he is allergic too the dr says it can be a long slow process to find out what it is.i only hope it is one of the things zakariya is already allergic too so i don´t have to do even more extra cooking,lol.we will have to go every week to the childrens surgery as outpataince once a week for a while after he comes out of hospital.yet another appointment,lol.what with me going 3 times a week for my irn,aymans speach theraphy 2 times a week plus other dr´s,hospital,theraphy´s etc now the children´s surgery once a week n top.who knows when i have time to do the housework lol.today was irn teast and aymans speach theraphy.tomorrow we have the landlord coming round for his once yearly check and to read the electric meater etc.the place looks like a bombs hit it.tomorrow morning i guess i will be cleaning like a mad women´lol.having said that i also have a lot to be thankful for especially when i think of all the children and teachers killed in the new town massacre.my heart goes out to the parents and family of thoose who lost their love ones.i will look forward and just get on and do what has to be done.i am not adding extra stress to my already stressful life so at the moment my loosing weight is on hold .if you have got this far in reading,i thank you for taking the time.take care and keep smiling.love karen emoticon
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    Karen dear....BREATHE. My favorite mantra - Breathe in. Breathe out. BIBO. You have so much on your plate dear. I too have to go for INR seemingly constantly and add to it your responsibilities with the kids and being alone and it is so very difficult for you. emoticon I wish we could all come and help. The time when you are in the hospital, I hope you can actually have some down time away from it all in a sense of not feeling you NEED to clean etc. Try to use that time between the two holidays to plan for the NEW year and think of all the blessings that 2013 IS going to bring! Love you girl!
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    sending a cwtch
    hope your husband can get back home soon to reduce some of your stress
    big hugs, Sandra
    2895 days ago
    I'm hoping things go easier for you all soon!
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    So sorry to hear all the you are going through. The others are right....take care of yourself and worry about the weight later. I wish I loved close so that I could give you a hand. Will keep you all in my prayers.

    hugs to you and the children.....Mary Anne
    2896 days ago
    Wow I agree with Chicchantal, and hope things get easier for you soon,
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    sometimes there are more important things in life than losing weight. Look after yourself and your little one and I hope his treatment does the trick for you.
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    Ohh my goodness ! Karen love, You really do have far to much to think about .. I wish I was closer to you to be able to come help ..
    So much worry and so much stress is not good for you love.
    Do they not have a organisation in Germany where you can access home help? .
    Perhaps you need to try and see if you can ..
    you cannot keep going on like this my friend .. It is obvious this is all to much for you.
    Know that I am thinking of you, and wishing everything will settle down soon ..
    Much Love .. Susie

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