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Friday, December 14, 2012

I guess the great thing about beginning again, means that you haven't lost your drive to succeed right?

Here I am, once again, at the beginning.

If we rewind to about 2005/2006, I weighed 250 pounds which I thought would be my heaviest weight ever.

Then, with the help of the South Beach diet, minimal exercise and twist of luck, in 2007/2008 I lost a total of 75 pounds. I was at my lowest adult weight of 175 pounds! I felt amazing and for the first time ever actually felt like I looked amazing. Of course, I eventually gained the weight back and by February of 2010, I weighed 245 pounds.

With the help of Sparkpeople.com, I was able to lose 40 pounds but in the events of the last year or so, have gained all of that weight - plus some - back.

It was heartbreaking to step on the scale Monday morning and see some really scary, unfamiliar numbers: 274.

I have officially gained 99 pounds. Is this even possible? Wow.

So, here I am again, beginning yet another weight loss journey. I'm so grateful for the resources of Sparkpeople and have had the most success and enjoyment in the weight loss process using Sparkpeople.

I was looking back at my weight loss progress report (awesome feature!), and when I was successful in 2010, the results were slow and steady. There were weeks when I lost multiple pounds, but there were many weeks when I lost a pound or less. This helps to give me some perspective and to realize I don't need to lose - nor will I lose - 10 pounds every week.

While exercise is important, I have found that my biggest problems revolve around my extremely unhealthy relationship with food, so through this journey my goal is really re-define that relationship and get to a happy, healthy place.

My goal is no longer to be at 175, rather, I think 190 is more manageable for me. So, that's my goal. My deadline is by my birthday next year (Nov.5), which gives me about 46 weeks or 326 days - almost a full year to reach my goal.

I won't be upset if I reach my goal sooner, but if I average 1 to 2 pounds of weight loss per week on a normal week, then November would be about right to reach my goal.

I've picked Mondays as my weigh-in days and my hope is to post a weekly Monday blog reflecting on my prior week.

I refuse to make this a crash diet. Instead, I'm focusing on making choices that work for me and choices that will work to make for a lifestyle change.

Thank you for all of the support over the years on this site, dear Sparkfriends. I'm hopefully that I can reconnect with many of you and find some new friends, too!
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  • NEWME0519
    Ashley, great to see you back in Sparkland! We all have our ups and downs. It doesn't matter how many times we fall but how many times we get back up!

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    3107 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/16/2012 6:26:49 PM
    I'm right there with you Ashley, gained back 40 of the 48 I lost. emoticon
    I am here for you...we can do this and this time we will keep it off!!! emoticon
    3108 days ago
    Good plan. A pound a week really adds up. Meanwhile you can be adjusting your attitudes towards food, learning portion control, and all those other things that allow you to not only lose, but to keep the weight off. Find some exercise you really like to do so you will do it consistently. The time I spend at the gym pays off in how I feel. Plus, it keeps me out of the kitchen and away from food!
    3109 days ago
  • YMWONG22
    Good for you for not quitting. As long as you don't give up, you can still achieve your goals.
    You are a strong and positive person.
    I'll be cheering you on.
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    3109 days ago
    thank you! sparkpeople has always been such a safe, welcoming, non-judgey environment that has really helped in my weight loss. hoping that works this time too :)
    3109 days ago
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    Welcome back................
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    3109 days ago
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