Please click the above link and enjoy Ne-Yo's "Let Me Love You!"
The other day as I was driving to work, this song came on the radio. I know I've heard it many times before but never listened to it.
"Much as you blame yourself, you can't be blamed for the way that you feel
Had no example of a love, that was even remotely real
How can you understand something that you never had
Ooh baby if you let me, I can help you out with all of that"
This made me think of how I treat myself. Hating the way I look, feeling totally defeated and letting Martha 1 (see previous Talking Cupcakes and the 3 Martha's blog) sit around and eat and feel sorry for herself. I grew up thinking I was fat and my weight was always an issue. I may not ever understand why I let myself gain all this weight back. The memories of being fit and slim are good. I do have an example of what it is like to be loved by yourself!
In the next verse he sings:
"I can see the pain behind your eyes
It's been there for quite a while
I just wanna be the one to remind you what it is to smile
I would like to show you what true love can really do"
The weeks leading up to my return to Spark were not good. I knew I had to do something about my weight and lack of physical activity. But I couldn't seem to get started and felt it was pointless. One day I saw my reflection in a full length mirror and was shocked. At that moment my heart ached tremendously and I hung my head in shame and disappointment. I knew I had to stop putting junk in my body and get off my a$$ and move.
Here I am, just 4 weeks into MAKING THIS HAPPEN and SURPRISE... I am smiling again. Laughing again. Feeling excellent and determined.
Most importantly, LOVING MYSELF!
This journey is about learning to love myself. No one else can loss the weight for me. Its Martha 2 and Martha 3 showing Martha 1 that she is loved and worth taking care of herself. No reason to be afraid!
Let me love you! We can do this! We know each other's troubles and can support each other through it all!