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Friday, November 16, 2012

i am still in a lot of pain and get so tired easily.just got back up after having a afternoon nap.lol.food wise i am doing really bad and can´t seem to stop binge eating.what is worse about this it is not the binge eating where i am eating without realising it,i am actually very aware of it and still doing it(doesn´t make sense does it but there you have it)which of course is making me feel even worse about it.i have put on 4 lbs last week alone.i am really missing lotfi and ayman even though i see them every nightz on skype.i don´t know about you when i feel ill i want to be cuddled and lotfi is not here for that so i am compentatione with food i guess.before you thing this is not like karen doing such a down blog there are some good news which i will come to in a minute it is just that the pain really gets to me and i don´t like feeling as tired as i do.

on to the good news.i haven´t had a diet coke in 21 days and in that time have only had water.the dr and i was right the left side of my face has improved alot which should make me happy .it does in a way but as i said the pain and tiredness over shadows that.i think if this carries on by the end of the year i could have my smile back,i.e.my mouth will vbe able to form a real smile.lotfi has also managed to change his ship so he and ayman will be here next wednesday(better pull my socks up with the house work and bugleing)as i am still doing little of that.i brought a nice new dress top to wear for lotfi when he comes.so as you see not all bad.thanks once again for taking the time to read and if you comment for commenting on my blog.it is much apreciated especially at the moment as i am feeling so tired and alone.take care and keep smiling,hugs,karen
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    Hope each day finds you feeling healthier. emoticon
    2917 days ago
    Way to go with the coke!!!

    I hate that you are still in pain! You are such a sweet, caring person - I wish you weren't burdened by so much!!
    2930 days ago
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    emoticon Yay for kicking the DC habit!
    Glad your face is getting better! Praying for you as always love! emoticon emoticon
    2932 days ago
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    You are never alone, we are all here with you. Try not to beat yourself about the eating. We all do it. But then we all reach a point where we do get back on track and I have noticed it is easier for me to get back on track when I am more accepting of my habits.

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    2932 days ago
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    2933 days ago
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    Thinking of you and sending good vibrations. Hope you continue to improve. emoticon
    2933 days ago
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    Darling girl you are never alone ...
    Just click on me if you need to chat on skype ...
    I am so glad you are getting your lovely face back .. I did say that it was looking better when we chatted last.
    Soon you will be a family again ...
    Much love to you and cuddles for the boys ... ask them to give you a group hug from me ... Susie emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2933 days ago
    I'm so glad you're getting better....I know you'll have your smile back in no time!

    We all eat out of loneliness, boredom, etc. You're not alone - I gained last week as well, but this week with effort, I'm down 4 pounds. Just changing my mistakes made a huge difference.

    Keep their return date in sight, and make each day count - it will be here soon! I'm sending you hugs!!
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    2933 days ago
    You are not alone in self-medicating with food. Many of us do it fully aware as you say. Even if you get some control over it life has a way of challenging it from time to time and we are only human not perfect. If you are an emotional eater it is very hard to lose weight when under stress of any kind and you are coping with ill-health and missing your loved ones too.

    However, I could seen a great improvement between the two photos you posted earlier and your loved ones will be home very soon. So try to concentrate on the positive and you will gain some control over the binges.

    2933 days ago
    I just keep hoping and praying for you!
    2933 days ago
    Things will get better, sweetie! I know how it goes, my husband's been OTR for 3 straight months again. He left a few weeks before my knee replacement and hasn't been home since. Just do the best you can and enjoy next week!! I'm hoping my husband makes it home, I could use some snuggle time too emoticon Feel better soon! emoticon
    2933 days ago
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