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My Downfall

Thursday, November 15, 2012

This is the part of the program where I become a failure. This is the familar part of the process where I do really well and then I just stop. I haven't exercised in weeks my eating habits are horrible again and I am just completely failing. I hate this so much and if I wasn't feeling horrible enough a family member just had to kick me when i was down. "When was the last time you exercised?" That's just what the hell I needed...NOT! This is why I don't tell people my hopes, dreams, or goals. I get it I know I'm a failure I really didnt need the reminder, but its my damn fault you'd think I'd learn by now not to ever tell people what I'm trying to do because when I fail it will get thrown back in my face. I know that may not be the intention but thats what it feels like and I'm just over it.
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  • SKEEWEE2MEK
    Stay encouraged. You're only a failure if you want to be one, and that isn't what you want. Just take each day one at a time and try making positive choices. One day turns into two and before you know it, you've made progress and stayed on track. emoticon emoticon
    2891 days ago
  • EUEK098
    You're not a failure!!!! Stop with the negative talk, put all that energy into getting back on track, and I say "who cares about what other people think," do you!!!!
    2899 days ago
  • XANGELSTEARZX
    Sounds like you've hut a rut and need to find a new way to make your weight loss journey more interesting to you again. Switch things up with a different diet plan and start looking for some new workout videos. Find your Spark again!
    2900 days ago
  • KALIYAH21
    Thank you all for your comment. Yes jen you are right I'm not ready to give up and I do have to clear something up I was having a conversation with my friend and I explained to her that I was aggravted and why and she said something that kind smacked me and made me realise what I was doing. She ask me after I explained the situation and what happened "so you aggravated with yourself?" and I realised I was. It wasn't that my family member was trying to be mean about it it was that I was already so mad myself and I was taking it out on them because its easier to blame them than blame myself for the fact that they even have had to ask me in the first place cause i should be doing it. I'm still wary thought because honestly it still hurt not because that was the intention but it was just a reminder I told someone I was going to do something and I didnt stick to it.

    2900 days ago
  • NBARNES
    Oh dear - that doesn't sound good at all. I see life as a series of cycles where there are peaks and valleys. Sometimes we hit all the peaks at once and life it terrific, most of the time the cycles are at different phases, and some parts of life are great and others not so much -- and sometimes we just hit all the valleys at the same time!

    Girl, I think all your cycles just valleyed at the same time!

    My advice, ride out those darn valleys and sooner or later you'll start peaking again -- maybe not in everything, but hopefully in enough areas where you'll stop being generally discouraged! Hang in there, it's true what Jen Jen says, it ISN'T failing until you give up...and I also agree with Heather, everyone goes through stuff like this and tomorrow IS a new day.

    So, hang in there and ride out the valley!
    2900 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/15/2012 5:52:13 PM
  • FINDINGJENJEN
    You are definitely not a failure. You're just experimenting ;). All joking aside, I have found a plan that has worked for me (for now) only by trying and "failing" and trying and "failing" over and over again. The only way to fail is to give up, and the fact that you have posted here tells me that you are not ready to give up yet. You can do it!
    2900 days ago
  • MRSHOBBITGRUDGE
    I am sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time with things. It sucks when you are already struggling with stuff and then have to deal with negative people and negative comments.

    The bottom line is you are not a failure!!! Far from it!!! I mean, this is just a time that's been really hard, but it will pass. Everyone goes through stuff like this.

    Just don't give up on yourself. Pick yourself back up and keep on going. Tomorrow is a new day. Hang in there!!!
    2900 days ago
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    You need to find someone supportive of your efforts and you may get the encouragement you need.
    2900 days ago
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