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Details: My Friend/My Enemy

Monday, November 05, 2012

I am such a detail person. I can make a simple story last minutes because I often feel that every detail is important. DH teases me, because if I miss a little bit of dialogue on a TV show, I'm convinced it could have been key and may have had important details to it.

At the same time, I space on some of the most important details. How the heck can that be?!?! Perfect example: My friends wrote this gorgeous (musical) piece that we are going to perform and in my mind, I'm convinced they wrote it just for me (not really). The solo to it is really quite perfect for my range, though. Anyway, I was pretty excited to audition for the solo and even got someone to cover the class I am teaching tomorrow so that I could be at the auditions. So tonight, I go to (regular) rehearsals and they are auditioning people. WTH?!?! I putz around for about 20 minutes and then when another soloist went in late, I thought I'd sneak in next. I did sneak in and warned the directors that I was prepared to audition tomorrow night and so tonight I really wasn't mentally prepared. I swear that they announced auditions for tomorrow night (details).

Let's see, I blew the first note and it was in the crapper from there. I could seriously cry (or just eat a crapload of junk...I'm already thinking about what might be tasty). The only thing that I have going for me is my unique range and tamber. I no longer have expectations for this. My director/former instructor sent me off with a "thank you; that was lovely," while I knew better.

I took a little comfort in knowing that the girl who came in after me (a favorite of the directors) started off saying the same thing; I thought these were taking place tomorrow.

OK...gonna go to bed before I start eating sh!tt. G'night.
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    I'm sorry to hear that the audition didn't go so well. Hopefully, you didn't overeat and beat yourself up over it. I'm sure you'll be more prepared next time! That's terrible that they did it a day earlier than you thought. If someone else thought it was the next day too, it probably was their mistake:) emoticon emoticon
    3180 days ago
    Oh boy. While I'm sure you know that we all have our crappy days...that probably doesn't make you feel any better. Sorry about that. Maybe it went better than you thought because your head wasn't quite in the right frame of mind? I'll think good thoughts for you just in case.

    3186 days ago
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    Ouch. I remember I forgot about an important quiz for a class in college. I took it without having prepared for it so I know how you feel. This will pass.
    3187 days ago
    emoticon This absolutely sounds like something I would do. I agree with Will in that we are our own worst critics. I am sure you weren't as bad as you thought. Plus with the other girl being just as confuzzled as you it sounds to me like they threw a wrentch into something. Take this as a lessoned learned and at the next audition melt their faces with their awesomeness!

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    3189 days ago
    )))))) good that you got some sleep vs. mindless medicating w/food. **SIGH**

    YOu know . . . I totally get what you're saying, though. My DH can so totally hyperfocus on something (translate: minutia) that he misses the big picture sometimes (translate: the iMPORTANT details).

    I know that if I didn't see it myself, with my own eyes, I'd have a hard time understanding it. But believe me, I do!

    Ok, onward to today. Make it the best you can. HUGS HUGS HUGS
    3189 days ago
    We are often our own worse critics. Also, please keep in mind: Everyone has an off day. It sucks, but it's going to happen.

    Best of luck! :)
    3189 days ago
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