Believing in ME?
Friday, November 02, 2012
Kelly, the SparkPeople office manager says:
If YOU don't make time for your health, who will?
You have to believe you can do it. It is the core of any decision to loose weight and get in shape. Believe in yourself.
I guess most of my problem is I don't believe in me. I mean yeah I get up each morning and I start my new page in my food journal and I hold out hope that today is going to be the day to turn it all around. Then I eat a good planned breakfast, pack my lunch for the day, and hey according to the journal i'm still doing great. Ok that should take me till dinner when I get home and have that planned meal. But wait.....
I work at WALMART. So it is break time and I just have to have those crackers with peanut butter because well I should be eating an apple but those look like they would hold me better. And it is lunch time and I know i have a good healthy sandwich with carrots and a fruit but I really would like those chips I saw on my way in this morning so i'm going to just get those and only eat one serving....ok so the bag is empty....that couldn't of been me eating all that. Then I get home and my hubby says he is tired and he has eaten a late lunch (he works strange hours) so no dinner for him. Well now i'm not going to cook all that food for just me. So I decide well I'll save that for another day. So I fix me something quick....quick means one thing to the next because now i'm grazing. I mean i'm tired myself and "cooking" just sounds so exausting.
Do you see a pattern here? I start off with good intentions and by the end of the day it is out of whack. So what to do about it? Well first off I need to eat that breakfast and pack a snack for break. No eating on the run. Second...eat what I have packed. I planned it and I know it is going to hold me till dinner so why add the stuff I don't need...dinner...have a plan B just in case. Could be soup, or a frozen dinner just for that occasion when Todd isn't hungry. Snack at night? Nothing after dinner. Water and lights out.
So will I do this? who know for sure. I want to but do I want to badly enough to stop the madness and just BELIEVE I can make the changes needed and work the program? there in lies the question of a lifetime. I say I want this but the numbers on the scales at the doctors yesterday say otherwise. She says I need more water, I say I need a lot less food.