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Sunday, October 28, 2012

emoticon I use the planner as a personal journal to say what I want when I want. Somethings can't be shared with the rest of the world. But today I would like to share this with you all. I think a lot of us could use this to gather our skirts and start running for our goals.....




When the newness wears off

When I first began this journy four years ago I was so excited. I did everything like I should from weighing and measuring to exercise just like spark suggested. Well here I am almost back at the same weight I was when I began. Now I have come close to goal and I could reach out and touch it at one point. But alas....I let it get farther and farther away from me. So I begin and begin again. I just never quite seem to find that happy place I was when I was losing then. I guess maybe it has to do with knowing how thin feels and being like I am right now isn't what I want to feel for the remainder of my life. Nor do I wan to take the time to focus and struggle. So where does that leave me? Nowhere.

You see you have to be willing to work for what you want in life. Whether that is losing weight, saving for that dream home, working for that promotion...nothing comes without a bit of work. So what do I plan to do about this situation i'm finding myself in right now? Well that is the question of a lifetime right now. I guess the biggest thing for me is to focus. Not just for the moment for really focus on my goals. I seem to have allowed them to fade into to back ground and it is time to bring them back into focus. No matter where we are at this moment in time we can fix what is wrong. We just have to gather all our strength and work at it....one little pound at a time. Just like saving is all about that one dollar at a time so is losing this weight. Reaching goals isn't about just jumping to them it is about working away at what is holding you back and then the rest will come.

So once more I'm beginning this journey one pound at a time. I have come to the conclusion that I don't like me much right now. I don't the uncomfortable me, the lazy me, the me that only half worksout and follows the plan half of the day. I want to be the me that plans, follows, thinks it through, second guesses, and works out with a sweat soaked vengence. that is the me I want to be. Time to step it up...the end of this year is coming and I don't want to be heading into year five with no change at all.

So what will you do to reach your goals these next few weeks of 2012?

Michelle.
10/28/2012
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  • no profile photo CD6576689
    Oh, how many times have we been down this road?? We do have the power to change ourselves, we do have the strength and the courage to go after our dreams, and to feel like we deserve them. I know you have it in you to see this through. I know you have the perseverance and the determination to succeed. I know that you are strong and capeable and that you deserve to see what you dream about become reality.
    We can do this, Michelle. We will keep hanging in here, starting over as many times as is necessary and we will reach the goals that we have set for ourselves. It's a journey and it has taken some time -- that is okay. It's a learning experience and every day we learn something new about ourselves and about what we want out of this life -- so keep reaching, keep pushing and keep dreaming -- you can do it!!!

    2839 days ago
  • KENDRACARROLL
    Only you can make it happen.
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    2839 days ago
  • IUHRYTR
    I need to also refocus and commit once again to be determined to again lose weight. I've maintained a nearly 40 pound loss but I, too, do not like where I'm at. Thanks for the kick in the pants to get serious, one pound at a time. emoticon ! -- Lou
    2840 days ago
  • WALLAHALLA
    Kick it in gear...that's what I plan to do.
    2840 days ago
  • MIDROAD
    This really resonates with me. My experience being close to goal, is that I never get all the way there. I get complacent, think I look pretty good, then lapse into my old habits.

    For me, it's almost anti- climatic when I get close to goal I think I miss the drama of the weight coming off.

    What I'm doing this time around is looking towards maintenance. Joined a at goal team. Looking at statistics and behaviors of successful maintainers. Just really working on my mindset.

    Besides my tendency towards complacency I really need to start cooking healthy meals.

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    2840 days ago
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