Tuesday, October 23, 2012
So at the beginning of October I had such great goals. I was going to exercise, eat right, and get ready for my first
Well needless to say that October was worse for me than September.
First my father who had major surgery in September still isn't better and now it looks like they did fix what they needed to during surgery. My parents live two hours away from where I work so every day that I have not worked I have been at their house. It isn't that I don't love my parents and I would do anything for either of them but sometimes I think I need to move closer to them because then maybe I could do what I need to do for me.
Second my one brother has been sick all month which means I have to help him out (his surgery is tomorrow so please send some prayers).
Third, I have hurt myself so I cannot even workout let alone run my 5k. Plus I went on a complete junk food binge for about a week which means weight gain for me
I feel like I am on a complete downward spiral and I'm not sure how to get back. I am frustrated with my weight because when I actually was working out and eating right I didn't lose anything...I actually gained 4 lbs in 3 months. What is that about! I have a lap band so shouldn't I be losing something? I get that I have hypothyroidism but that can't be an excuse of why I can't lose weight. I'm so tired of this disappointment. It just feels like I am never going to lose this weight.