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I'm Traveling By Plane, Train Or Is It Automobile?

Tuesday, October 23, 2012


So it is officially the mid-point of the BLC 20 and where am I? Am I where I should be at this point to reach the goals that I set at the beginning of the challenge?

Can you say NO? I can. I am nowhere near where I should be to get to where I want to be at the end of the challenge. My goal was to lose 25 pounds so I should have lost at least 12 pounds by now. Where am I? Umm well, I am sad to say that I have only lost 2.2 pounds in the 6 weeks. Okay, I know, that is still a loss and don't get me wrong, I will take it. I just REALLY want to get to Twoterville and I need to lose more than 2.2 pounds in the next 6 weeks to get there. At this rate, I won't make it to Twoterville in this challenge. I am going to take my eyes off of that for now. Now, before you all kick my butt and yell and holler at me, I have been given the opportunity for a one time (no extra charge) change of my goals for the challenge. So, with that in mind, I am making my goal to lose 5 pounds in the next 6 weeks. That would make 8.2 pounds lost at the end of the challenge. My stretch will be 10 pounds total at the end of the challenge.

I am still going to continue to work on my exercise and my servings of fruits and veggies as I previously set in my goal blog.

I am going to take my eyes off of Twoterville for now. Okay please don't gasp and start yelling at your computer screen at me. I need to focus on the actions and the process for now. I think that focusing on getting to Twoterville is also causing anxiety. Since getting the anxiety attacks under control is a major priority right now, I think this is the best thing. I will get there my friends! I know I can and I WILL!

I am going to restart my streak in a couple days and get that back on track. I am going to pull out my journal and take some time to write about the things that are happening along the "road". I will be pulling out the "map" and re-mapping out the journey. I will also work on not letting myself get stressed out trying to be perfect. I just need to keep pushing and not worry about being perfect. I am NOT in a challenge with anyone but myself so there is no reason to compare my "trip" to anyone else. I am not the same as anyone else so I won't be losing like others. I am not at the same fitness level as others so I can't expect to run a marathon tomorrow so I shouldn't beat myself up for not being able to do what someone else does.

Are you taking notes? Yep that goes for you too! You are unique so don't compare yourself or your weight loss to that of someone else. By all means, push and challenge yourself but don't try to run a marathon tomorrow if you haven't trained for it! Start where you are and work toward those goals.

Again, if you haven't been 100% perfect with everything. Don't beat yourself up. It isn't about being perfect. It is about being persistent. It is about being consistent. It is about picking yourself up and moving forward when you fall.



Don't forget this:



Celebrate where you are right now:



Make good decisions throughout the day:



Tell yourself:



Remember, we are all in this together! When you need help, reach out to someone and ask for help. Sorry that I forgot about that until it was really bad but I am back and I promise not to let that happen again! I know just where to go for help! Thanks to all those who checked in with me and prayed for me. Sorry that I didn't respond back (it is part of the anxiety). Just know that I appreciate it and I love ya'll for all your care and support!

Much love,

Susan

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  • 4RASCALS
    Susan you can do this. Your strong & determined. Some times we need to reset
    our goals. It doesn't mean we quit, just that we need to make changes to fit whats
    going on with us. You can and will do it. Hang in there
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    2570 days ago
  • KAJEAR
    The past several weeks have been tough on a lot of us, ME included. emoticon

    You've got the right attitude-we shouldn't beat ourselves up over it. We can't be perfect all the time and sometimes our choices get out of hand. Let's put it behind us and try to move on. I'm right there with you! emoticon

    I found this quote on SparkPeople:
    I may not be where I want to be, at least I'm not where I used to be!
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    2571 days ago
  • POSITIVELY_EB
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    2574 days ago
  • SUNRISE14
    AWESOME BLOG ! I wish i had watched it before i ate that piece of cake ! emoticon I had it for breakfast but i had a piece last night to. I was doing so well but i can feel myself going back to the old ways i got to get back on track or i will gain my weight back. I been missing your blogs and am so thankful you are on the team GOD ANSWERS PRAYER ! Don't give up ! KEEP PUSHING !
    2575 days ago
  • JUDY106
    Glad to see you. I feel for you. Your are trying and that is really all we can ask of our self. I wish you the best of luck with your efforts. I really love that you are so honest with us. That is the only way to help your self and it helps others to to see your honesty. Hugs Judy
    2578 days ago
  • PAMAPPLE
    Susan, so glad you got out of the house today... you look great and I did notice the makeup!! Take it a step at a time... you really analyzed your situation well and realize that we all have setbacks... I have only lost a couple of pounds too since I haven't been very consistent with staying in my calorie range but I feel more determined to track everything knowing that not overeating is the key to losing weight... the exercise will help us burn off those extra calories, too. I am praying for you, my friend!! emoticon
    2579 days ago
  • YORKIE_GIRL
    You can do this! Take it slow and steady! You'll get there!
    2580 days ago
  • SAASHA17
    Everyday is a day to start anew..and we can do this Susan...Sorry I was MIA as I was on vacation..and I know how ur feeling...and I had to kick myself to get over the slump..slow and easy...u can reach ur goals...Love the way u analyze the situation and all..u are awesome and can can do this!!! Go Mochas..

    Manasa
    2580 days ago
  • LJR4HEALTH
    Susan please do not beat yourself up remember we do need ot be flexible on this journey and the best thing of the half way point of BLC is to be able to make a more realistic goal to finish strong I think 10 pounds is a very doable goal emoticon forward
    2580 days ago
  • KIPPER15
    Susan don't beat yourself up. You have to take this journey at your own speed. Anxiety attacks take it out of you. I've been there. Keep believing in yourself. emoticon emoticon
    2580 days ago
  • SPARKFRAN514
    Don't beat yourself up. It isn't about being perfect. It is about being persistent. It is about being consistent. It is about picking yourself up and moving forward when you fall I think these few sentences sum up your entire blog we can slip and slide and as long trail . as long as we don’t give up the finish line doesn’t disappear just stays there waiting for us to cross . and we will cross it Its better to take a you time and not experience anxiety attacks remember its your journey and not a contest to see who gets to the finish first. emoticon sit down take a deep breath and have one of those good looking coffees on your page
    Your team mate
    Fran
    2580 days ago
  • LINDAK25
    I'm sorry you're having anxiety attacks again. You do seem to have a good plan about starting back up again. Starting with the fastbreak goals and simplifying things, breaking it down into small pieces is less stressful. I agree that dealing with the sleep issue is really important. In fact, I think that's a major issue (I know it is with me, too). I've been fighting to keep my sleep schedule, but I've been able to do it. When I started Sparking I was getting between three and five hours of sleep. Susan, this is so important! I hope you're able to get it straightened out.

    Loved the makeup and nails and yes, we can see that! Getting out is good. It's something I've been working on. You should have seen me shopping for a bra!

    You don't have to do everything at once. When stress and anxiety take over, don't try to loss weight if it's too much. See if you can maintain while dealing with the other things that have priority. Well, what do I know. Only you can decide where you need to go. You're smart and it sounds like you have given it some thought. Whatever you do, know that I thinking of you and wishing you the best.
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    2582 days ago

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  • JINLYNN
    Let me start by saying you look fabulous - your hair style, makeup, and nails are great - and the colour of your top suits you. It is tempting to just stay in one's jammies when one is feeling low, so this tells me that you are on your way up again.
    What I really appreciate about your blogs is the honesty and genuineness that you have. And the inner courage - you are not afraid to be vulnerable. And you have the wisdom and ability to talk your way through your struggles and set backs and to find your own road/path to follow. Everyone is an individual and, as you said, everyone has to take the route that works for them. There will be detours, and construction slow downs, but that doesn't mean the journey is over. They are only speed bumps - they may slow us down, but they are not going to stop us!
    Thanks for sharing, and I am here to support, encourage, and cheer you on.
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    2582 days ago
  • EATVEGAN
    I saw the make-up and nails right away. I thought Susan is on her way back up. It may be early, but she's started. Congratulations on this blog and vlog. It certainly speaks to me. I'm back to 0 in my streak. But tomorrow is a new day, though I'll be baby-sitting Kirby at his house, so up early.
    As usual I think your thinking is right on target. You may have been trying to do too much too soon. I'm overwhelmed right now with family stuff. You know me, I can only do so much running around and I start to turn to mush. Well, I think the middle of the night tonight is when that happens.
    You, go, Sweetie, take all the time you need. You are worth it in spades.
    Love you bunches, Mom
    2582 days ago
  • GUENAVIEVE
    I'm having trouble sleeping too and am up all night most of the time. Because it's so late, I make excuses to not exercise and I've lost my streak since my monthly. I'm depressed about it but you are right, I can't beat myself up about it. Thank you for the encouragement and good luck on getting back to you goals. You can do it!
    2582 days ago
  • GRNDMOM43
    emoticon Challenges are great to keep us motivated but we have to do it at our bodies pace. You have made a wise decision and I applaud you! emoticon
    2582 days ago
  • IAMAGEMLOVER
    Only you know what is right for you. You have to do what is right for you. This is your journey. You could be right about think about twoterville is just causing too much anxiety. Good luck, you will do it.
    2582 days ago
  • SHRINK_U
    I hear ya. I have been losing weight very slowly for the past 6 to 8 weeks. Good for you for not comparing yourself to others rates of weight loss. I struggle with anxiety, too. Hugs Susan!!! You are still on the path.. you got this :)
    2582 days ago
  • GINGER_BEAR
    You will get there kiddo! You, like John and Steve in the movie, are DETERMINED to preserve. ...to reach where you want to be. We do get thrown off course at times but check your map, and follow your travel plans! emoticon emoticon emoticon

    I hear ya about anxiety issues. That happened to me these last couple of weeks and I veered off track for awhile. Now I am back headed in the direction I need to be moving in. It "ain't" easy but it is so worth all the effort.

    Hang in there and keep on keepin' on!
    2583 days ago
  • MIDORI_SPARK
    It is wonderful to see you back, Susan, you have been missed! I have all the faith in the world that you can do this. No minor derailment can get in your way!

    Your nail polish looks fantastic, btw! I love the colour :) emoticon
    2583 days ago
  • ME_FIRST
    You can pull through this Susan. Maybe today you're traveling on a bicycle so the going is harder. I hope you'll try to get out every day even if it's to talk around the block or stop in the grocery store.

    Hope you have a good day today my friend. Yvonne

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    2583 days ago
  • HI52J9
    Susan...it is a brand new day and let's restart this all together emoticon I love your honesty and how you have a healthy attitude of being honest about yourself and your affliction. I know too well how debilitating a mental affliction can be and how many facets of your life it can affect...and how much down time it can suck from life and undo good strides made. I'm with you here to help you back up! We can do this together. When I come out of a 'funk' I try simplify things into my '27' category. Somedays it's 27 jumping jacks, or moving 27 things to clean under them, reading 27 pages of a book, walking for 27 minutes or whatever.

    You do what is right for you and know that you are wonderful and immensely more amazing than your affliction makes you think sometimes.

    So what do you say we get back on that exercise, tracking and posting kick? I know you can do it and we can stand victorious together, better than the day we started this round.

    Stay amazing...stay honest...stay on track and feel amazing emoticon
    2583 days ago
  • MLH148
    This was a good start to MY day. Thanks. emoticon
    2583 days ago
  • STEPH-KNEE
    I love what you wrote about Twoterville causing adding stress and anxiety and needing to focus on the actual ACTIONS that get us there. That is where I'm at too. I need to get back to tracking water, I need to get back to staying in my calorie range and actually putting some EFFORT into my exercise. I totally know what you mean. I feel like WHEN we get there, it'll make us so happy and it'll give us a little extra nudge, but the stress of getting there in the first place isn't doing us any favors. I guess it's a double edged sword huh? *Facepalm*

    I am so proud of you for everything you have accomplished and everything you are GOING to accomplish. You always dig deeper and get to the root of what is going on, and that is why you are amazing. You don't just sweep it under the rug, not only are you honest with us but honest with yourself and that is why you are amazing. Many of us can't admit to ourselves when something isn't right, but you are willing to get to the bottom of it and I need to take a note from you.

    We will start over on the streaks when we are ready and you know what, maybe (and maybe i'm wrong, you can tell me if it sounds dumb LOL) our streak should be a work in progress. Like okay we made it X amount of days on our streak, and next time we are just looking to beat the X number. Mine was 29. Maybe we need to be more about the progress and not the perfection (as you mentioned to me). emoticon emoticon I could go on and on about how much I heart you, but I'm gonna guess you already know. emoticon

    You look beautiful as always btw! Nails look fabulous too!
    2583 days ago
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