Hypomanic And Wide Awake...
Monday, October 15, 2012
Hello all! Sorry about not posting the last couple of days, I was trying to setup my webcam and it turns out it's not the right one so I'm gonna exchange it with my brother who knows what I need and he's gonna hook me up with one that'll work for me.
So for an update of the last few days...First since my last post I have not smoked more than 10 cigarettes a day when I usually smoke 20 to 30 which is a pack to a pack and a half. I've been very careful about watching what I'm eating and portion control due to my hand to mouth addiction which if you are a smoker or used to smoke you know what I'm talking about. Heck non smokers may even know but either way, that's one thing I've been doing.
I did my official weigh in yesterday and am currently rolling out at a total weight of 237. I lost a 1.5 pounds and I can honestly say that I'm finally feeling like I'm loosing around my waist. I put on my siz 18 jeans that haven't fit in months and guess what...They....wait for it....they....BUTTONED! Yup, they buttoned. I was so excited. Now they weren't loose, they were tight but they did fit without me holding in my breath and suffocating. lol
Next, I am so hypomanic right now, lol.
Now for those who do not know about Bipolar Disorder, Hypomania is a level below actual mania.
The thing is though that there is another level that some people either don't know or they do know and group it with mania and that's psychosis.
Myself, my pendulum usually swings to mania or hypomania. I don't usually go into psychosis. And depression is the least out of any of my episodes. I'll set up an appointment with my doctor. Oh, that's the other thing...they changed my doctor yet again! This is the 5th doctor in say 6 years???? So I'm starting all over again. Wish me luck!
Hugs to all