I was browsing the internet and found the quote. I've come to the decision that I'm going to attempt to stop smoking again. I officially have 4 cigarettes left. Once those are gone, I'm not going out to buy another carton.
I've been smoking since I was around 19 I think...so it's been over a decade. I've tried quitting before on several different occasions but always wound back to picking the habit back up again and again.
The main problem that I have is that (and I know this is politically incorrect but I'm saying it anyway) I enjoy smoking. It relaxes me. There I said it. All non smokers take that! It's a vice I know, but considering it's the real only true vice I still have, it could be so much worse. Not that smoking is great, but you get the point.
A big fear of mine for when I stop smoking is that I'll gain weight. I'm already gaining weight from my meds and trying hard to lose those pounds, but add me not smoking, I'm not quite sure what's gonna happen or how I will be.
But there's really no other option due to the fact that my asthma is kicking into gear from me smoking and working out...add the weather changing so much lately, it's not pretty. (And yes to all the non smokers I know it's insane for someone with asthma to smoke but I did so there, I'm being honest, don't shoot me or send me mean posts please).
Like I said before though I've tried quitting on several different occasions and it always ends the same.
But I've made my decision and decided that this will be my non spark goal. Something that is important and will actually help me in the long run in regards to my health. Combine that with my workouts and me eating healthy and I will be one sexy mama in no time. I just hope that quitting now is the right thing to do. I'm taking on a lot, exercising everyday, eating healthy, etc which I know is great but I don't want to overdo it and break down completely from overload. I was also told last night in the meeting that they think I'm hypomanic. So a lot is going on with me, and ya'll know about my friend. I'm just gonna go through with it and take it one day at a time.
I'm doing much better today by the way. I worked out for an hour and burned 475 calories. I'm going to see my doctor (psych) tomorrow and me and brooke are working out afterwards. Not quite sure what I'm gonna be telling her, but I'll figure that out when I get there.
Oh, and if anyone asks, I am not doing the patch or gum. One I can't afford that stuff, and two I don't know how that stuff would effect my meds.
So there you have it ya'll. My new non SP goal. Keep your fingers crossed cause it begins tomorrow.