Today is my birthday, and it is time for a new attitude.
Thursday, September 27, 2012
I have made some really bad food choices these past few days, not going to lie cause really, who am I lying to but myself then? I am going to work hard today to get things back in perspective and do a better job, I threw out the cake I had sitting on my kitchen counter this morning, it just kept staring at me screaming, you know you want me, go on, no one will know. Well that is bs, I know. So yes, I have ate cake, I have fried stuff, had too many breads and I feel it, I am lethargic, I am barely even in a give a damn kinda mood but I am still here.
I have been walking, and when I say walking I don't mean a stroll around the block, it is a full on sweaty, breathy walk. And I have managed to do this every single day except this past Sunday for the last 3 weeks. My only reason to not do it Sunday was I had a lot of barn chores to get done instead, so it is still all good. I am very proud of myself for this and am not going to discount it.
Lesson here today is: even when spirling out of control in food, keep something heading in the right direction, it might just be enough to pull you out when you need it. In the past I would have ate horribly, then turned around with the thought of "no point in working out after I just did this" instead I turned that binge into "better get my butt out there even though I feel a bit bloated due to the massive food I ate, I will feel better afterwards." And you know what? I was right, because I was able to pull my self up and off the couch every day I can still look myself in the mirror and say, ok, enough of that now back on track, you have not derailed your whole life, you have just had a bump.