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NEED A LITTLE HELP :-(

Sunday, September 23, 2012

So this past week has been really bad for me. I worked out last Sunday and yesterday (but only for 15 minutes). I have so many things that are stressing me out right now and all I want to do is eat and eat. And I'm not having such a great time telling myself no.
I am trying to deal with my dad in the hospital and not getting better, my brother trying to schedule surgery which needs to be when I can take him because my mom doesn't drive in the city, and my mom who is making herself sick with my father and brother. I'm not feeling great and I'm not sure why. I hurt everywhere, I look like a 90 year old when I walk, and I'm so tired all of the time. I've been told that it is the hypothyroidism because it isn't regulated yet. Plus I'm just feeling blah....not depressed, I've been there so I know but not motivated or caring that I was a pound and a half more on Thursday than I was when I first started here. I just am at a loss and could really use support, advice, or a swift kick in the ass! emoticon
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  • ELLISH
    Praying for you. These things can really bring you down. Just know that this too shall pass. Things will get better. Stay positive, how you feel at any given time is your choice! Stay strong and if you need to vent, breath or just scream. Do it! Temper tantrums and stress relief don't mean your crazy if no one sees it!! ;) That's my motto!! :) Hang in there!! emoticon
    2742 days ago
  • CCADIE
    I am so sorry about what you're going through. Life sure can be tough at times - I've been there and know firsthand how incredibly stressed you must be. The added trauma of unregulated thryoid is just the worst. The silver lining is that instead of just giving up, you're reaching out. And 15 min of exercise may not feel like much, but it's 15 min more than nothing. And speaking as a person who suffers from hypothyroidism myself, 15 min when you're feeling zero energy is like climbing a mountain! You sound like an incredibly strong woman. You'll get through this one step at a time.
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    2742 days ago
  • ENDERLI
    Hi Kara,
    Wow, a lot of big stuff is going on right now. I know that old adage of "when it rains it pours" is all too true. We will be thiking of you. Push the water, that might help give you some more energy...although HypoThyroid is going to make you exhausted no matter what!
    Take car of yourself first, because you won't be able to help anyone else if you are not feeling well. I fed my cold M&Ms last week, so I understand the "need to feed." I wish they made a pill for emotional eating, because I know a lot of us would take it in a second.
    Good luck & keep pushing through, you can do it!!! It will all be over soon, the tough spots. I liked the other comment "season of suck" we've all been there, and made it through...you can too!
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    2742 days ago
  • RISINGBLUESTAR
    I am sorry you are dealing with so much stress. Having Hypothyroidism can make you EXHAUSTED and Stress can also make you EXHAUSTED and I know it's not a good feeling. How long have you been taking your thyroid medicine? It can take a several weeks to feel a difference with how you feel but if it continues after a couple more weeks, I definitely would suggest trying another medication. Exhaustion. Brain fog, Zero energy. Mood swings. I experienced them all when I was taking the generic for Synthroid even after I took it for 1 year and 3 months. I only felt slightly better and I just could not live like that. You may just need a higher dosage of your medication. Even if your numbers are within the normal range, you could still be unwell and suffer from symptoms. A lot of doctors are very number focused but if you advocate for yourself, that is the best thing you can do. :)

    Don't be discouraged. You are trying your best. You have a lot of stress to deal with but you are here on spark asking for help and blogging. You are on the right path no matter what the scale says.

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    2742 days ago
  • CATHGREEN8
    Two years ago we had what I call a "Season of Suck". I had bilateral total knee replacement and we lost three family members, two somewhat expected and one not so expected in a five week period. The stress and sadness were just so overwhelming. I wish I had SparkPeople back then, I know I would have avoided these first 20 pounds that need to go. I wish I had been taking care of myself and been better equipped to take care of my family.

    We got through. And the Season of Suck did end. I hear strength in your voice that I wish I had had. You know you are stronger when you take care of yourself, I think that is why you came here. So, please be very kind and gentle with yourself. Please do what you can to feel better and stronger.

    Wishing you peace. emoticon
    2742 days ago
  • SKINICOOK
    Hi Kara, that's really tough. Look after yourself first. I know it may be easy to slip into bad eating habits now but eating well and taking even a few minutes exercise each day will help you a lot. It will improve your mood and give you more strength to support others.

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    2742 days ago
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    Dear CHICA125KML,
    emoticon to you. I understand that your life is stressful right now. That is life. My advice to you would be to write down the things going on in a 2 column list. 1. Things I can control 2. Things I can't control. Then make a plan as to how you are going to deal with to the things you can control. The stuff you can't control, let go. You may not be able to control your dad's health or your mother's reaction, but you can choose to drink water instead of soda with your meals. Sometimes I reflect on one, just one positive thing I can do and will do during the day. Perhaps start the day with some deep breathing or fix your mom and yourself a good breakfast. Then whatever the day will bring it will bring.

    Then, focus on what you can control. WooHoo! You managed to squeeze in 15 minutes of exercise with all this going on.

    Trust me. I've gone through hell that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy over the past 2 years, and have had to deal with stress no parent ever dreams of. Things will get better. :)

    2742 days ago
  • PURSUEJOY
    Hi Kara! I saw your post ~ I am so sorry for all the illness going on around you with such very, very important people ~ Dad & brother...You are shouldering an enormous load, and I have hypothyroidism too, and when it is not well managed it is a terrible situation. To combine these two situations together, is very, very difficult ~ no wonder you are so exhausted...

    It is for moments like this that I wish I had a magic wand!!! ~ Since I don't, I offer you my friendship, my huge empathy, my support and my heart.
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    Try to be gentle with yourself ~ get as much rest as you can ~ some Tylenol PM might be a good friend to you if you have trouble sleeping...

    Keep us all posted on how you are doing ~ we CARE!!!!!!
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    2742 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/24/2012 1:01:11 AM
  • BEAUTY_WITHIN
    Sorry you're having a rough time! Try using the exercise to relieve some of that, even if it is just 5 minutes, it's SOMETHING, and all those 5 minutes do add up! Take care of yourself, and I hope things get better soon!
    2742 days ago
  • 46SHADOW
    Sorry to hear about the stress in your life. It can be very hard to deal with a new 'eating plan' when chaos is around you.
    First, take care of yourself so you can be htere for others. That may mean just acknowledging thaat the stress is huge. Be gentle with yourself and try to plan a little soul filling time evry day
    Walking in the sun is a healthy way to decrease stress if you have the enrgy and can make the time.
    Good luck to you.
    2742 days ago
  • MILLISMA
    So sorry to hear what you're going through and I do understand. I've been traveling back and forth between PA and ME to help my parents. Stress can really knock the wind out of your sales and with all that is happening, the stress is there. Is there anyway that someone can step in and help you? You need to try and take some time for yourself.

    Just try to do what you can to stay on track but don't let that add to your stress also. Will keep you in my prayers.

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    2742 days ago
  • TRIANGLE-WOMAN
    I've been feeling a little unmotivated also. This too shall pass. Keep checking in, keep sparking and we can do it together!

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    2742 days ago
  • LILAC_LANE
    I've heard it said that when we feel the need to eat and eat and eat, that is a way we "take care of ourselves." I know that has been true for me. Maybe make a list of ways you can care for yourself other than food. Soaking in a hot tub, taking a 10 minute walk. Going to the park. Reading a magazine or favorite book. Working on a hobby for 10-15 minutes. Taking a comedy break. (I love watching Big Bang when I need a laugh and a Sheldon fix)

    It's important to be able to communicate with your family and let them know that the stress is wearing you down, and you could help them more if everyone tried to work together. I don't think you need a kick. I think you just need to know someone cares, and I do! I'm a sparkmail away if you want to "talk"

    Wishing you a better week,
    ~j~
    2742 days ago
  • MSMOSTIMPROVED
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    Remember you MUST take care of yourself in order to take care of your family. Make time for a little meditation in the morning and a brisk walk or anything to move your body. Taking care of your mind and body are not an option when you have these types of challenges facing you all day.

    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.


    2742 days ago
  • ESCHLETZ
    Wow. I can't imagine the stress you're feeling right now. emoticon
    But you can make it through this.
    I agree that taking a little time to focus just on you is definitely needed, and going for a short walk (even just 15 minutes to half an hour) will do wonders for you. Don't even worry about breaking out a sweat, just walk, meditate, pray, veg-out, what ever it is that will help you right now.
    And definitely, if you have any other people you can ask for help (doesn't have to be family), ASK! You'd be surprised how many people will be willing to come do the smallest things for you, which will take some of your stress away, since that'll be one less thing you have to think about right now.
    2743 days ago
  • KELLY19770
    emoticon You need it! I don't have any words of wisdom, but I am here for you and I KNOW you can find it in yourself to pull yourself up and do this!
    2743 days ago
  • TEACHFIRST268
    Sounds like you have a lot on your plate (pardon the expression) and I don't blame you for feeling stressed out!

    It has taken me quite a while - and I've always been one of those 'yeah, yeah...I know' when someone would tell me - but in all honesty, it's helping me keep my sanity these days. When I start to feel anxious/overwhelmed (heart literally racing and the worries take over) I put on my sneakers and go for a walk - right then and there (if I'm at home when the butterflies hit!). Though it doesn't solve all the issues going on, it does help me feel a bit better. It really does!

    It's so easy to blow it off, but once you try it a few times I think you'll be pleasantly surprised.

    With so much going on, rather than overwhelm yourself and beating yourself up - pick just one positive thing to work on. Changing your entire lifestyle overnight is setting yourself up for failure, especially when you have so much else going on. While you search for the best way to deal with your recent diagnosis, and with family members health issues - tracking food and monitoring calories, blah, blah, blah...lots to deal with. However, getting in a walk, or a workout, is something that is both good for you physically and mentally - and doesn't require a menu, special shopping trips, counting calories, and all that...

    Ease up on yourself, forgive yourself, and move forward. There's nothing wrong with 15 minutes of exercise! Take three 10 minute walks a day if you can! Studies show that it's cumulative!

    Hang in there!
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    2743 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/23/2012 3:56:46 PM
  • ANGRITTER
    Here's a swift kick in the ass, just for you! emoticon Throw the scale away right now. You are overwhelmed with everyone in your family being sick right now and and it's causing you serious stress.

    i hate to tell you this, but even stretching everyday will help get rid of some of the stress. And you need to communicate to your mom that she isn't helping by making herself sick worrying about everyone else.

    I understand this is a difficult time, but make sure you find some time to yourself to decompress - cry, beat up a pillow, yell as loud as you can (preferable outside and in a place where no one will think you are too crazy), get a dozen eggs and write things that frustrate you on them and go outside and throw them at something. Read the egg, and toss it and get rid of that frustration. Even if you have to hide in a closet, make time for you.

    You may not think you are depressed, but you are walking the fine line right now. Get it in check before you really plunge. You have exhausted yourself and need some revitalizing energy. Is there anyone else that can help you out with all of this? Can your mom come visit in town where she can do some helping?

    I feel for you as it seems the entire world is on your shoulders right now. I do hope you find some relief soon.
    2743 days ago
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