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40lbs Lost... A Gift & A Curse...

Friday, August 10, 2012

So I've been talking a lot lately about the 40lb curse that I have. I have never made it past 40 lbs lost in any of my weight loss attempts. So while I am celebrating the 40 lbs lost mark, I am also keeping my focus on moving forward to the 50 lb mark.

I did not expect to wake up and be able to take this picture today. It is my weigh day, but between the rough day on Tuesday and my TOM I did not expect it, so I am really excited.

I do not have an official picture of me at 272, so the closest I have is this one where I was "around" my highest weight. The plaid shirt in the picture, I had to wear as an "over shirt" because I could only snap the bottom 2 closed and if I moved slightly they popped unbuttoned. Now I can button it all the way and I look forward to seeing the shirt get looser and looser. I have no idea what jeans I was wearing in the picture, but I have gone from a 24 to a 20 and the 20's are a little loose, so yay. :)



I can definitely tell in my chins area, and the fact that I can button up the shirt is great. It's still hard for me to be all confident and adorable in pics when I still feel I have so far to go, but I'll be glad I took this photo to look back on in the future. :D
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  • GEMINIGEM6
    Girl you can def see the difference! You're doing great! Congrats! I'm with you. I have made it to the 40lb mark before too and nothing more. I have since gained that weight back and am now having to start over at a higher weight than I was back then. But I, like you, am determined to make it past the 40lb mark. :)
    3228 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12867455
    Yes you will be glad. I need to step it up and take some pics myself. Good for you that you are seeing all the changes taking place.
    3231 days ago
  • JESSICA_STULTZ
    Woo hoo! Definitely a change in that 40 pounds. I feel you on trying to hit that 50 down. I've been working on it these last couple weeks. Only about 2 pounds away and I was at the same weight as last week on Sunday. So frustrating. Keep pushing and you will hit that 50, then 180, then 170. You can do it!
    3233 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12371464
    Go you! You look great!
    3233 days ago
  • EMMAEKAY
    You are BEAUTIFUL!
    3233 days ago
  • ZELDABEE
    you look amazing! I can't even tell you how proud I am to have you as a spark friend!!!
    3233 days ago
  • KASTASTROPHY
    Damnnnnnnnn!!! Girrrrllllllllllll!!!!! Let me get yo number! HIt me up with dem digits cuzzz you so fly!!

    but seriously!!! LOOK AT THAT!!! that is TONS of progress!!!!
    3233 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12621234
    I'm really happy for you, congrats!
    3235 days ago
  • THESHELBSTER
    You look amazing. I am so proud of you. I heart you so much!
    3235 days ago
  • HEATHERFREE
    YESSSSSS!!! awesome!! I can tell a big difference, but next time I want a bigger smile!!!!! hahaha good job hun you rule!
    3235 days ago
  • SHEPIL
    emoticon Great job. Thanks for sharing your journey.
    3235 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5863426
    Congrats on your success so far!! Blow that 40 lbs curse out of the water!! Keep up the great work :)
    3235 days ago
  • LENHARDT
    You look great. Nice job! I have a feeling that you'll definitely make it past the 40 lbs this time. emoticon emoticon
    3235 days ago
  • no profile photo CD1923850
    Awesome job! Keep up the great work
    3235 days ago
  • MORETHANAMOMOF4
    Awesome, you are looking great!
    3235 days ago
  • SKINNYMISSKASEY
    I can see a big difference! You can make it past 40, just keep going strong! I never believed I'd lose 121lbs, but it's possible!!
    3235 days ago
  • MAHGRET
    Congrats and keep up the good work! i love the before and after photos, you can see such a difference.
    3235 days ago
  • ADARKARA
    Look at how baggy those jeans are, way to go!!!
    3235 days ago
  • GRANDMABEAST63
    How awesome is that 40 pounds lost Woohoo !!!! Now forward to 50 you can do it. emoticon
    3235 days ago
  • CORNERKICK
    Good for you...Keep it up!
    3236 days ago
  • JACOBSBELOVED
    So exciting!!!! Keep it up! Continue to find new ways to stay motivated! You are getting so incredibly close to your goal! Here's to you on your way to the 220's!
    3236 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12088077
    I'm going to teach you a secret my Mom taught me as a kid.

    So: here it goes. Turn that picture upside down.

    Crazy? Yes.

    Now you can look at the photo with fresh eyes. (At least this is how I look at pictures of myself. It keeps me from nitpicking about my unlovely parts)

    Look at the curves of your body- Sweetie- where did your upper belly go? And your legs? You gotta put those beauties in a skirt! And your face and neck shrunk! I see a HUGE difference in your legs and in your curves too. Have a look at how loose and baggy those jeans are around your legs-

    I totally get that you don't want to start thinking that this is "enough". But Stephanie, you body will just keep getting smaller. With all the habits and changes you've made, you have paved the road to a smaller body- you just gotta keep trucking.

    But when you get small, (notice I said WHEN!) your body image will not magically get better. If you were 135 pounds you would still find nitpicky things about your body you didn't like. Babe- you have got to start loving yourself and the vessel that is holding you. Your body is beautiful for all the awesome things it does (didn't your body take you to Disneyland? Wasn't it your body that challenged fear and did something hardcore? Your legs that lugged 270 odd pounds everywhere you needed to be? That's one powerful body!)

    When I look at this picture I see weeks of hardwork, dedication and determination of a lady so beautiful she cannot yet see it herself. Just like Cinderella, you my dear are rising from the ashes to live the life you dreamed.

    You should be SO VERY proud of yourself. I know I am!


    AND PS: OMGOSH CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!! Meet you at 50 pounds? We're neck and neck :)
    3236 days ago
  • 83MARTHA
    I just went through what you are going through. I had been to 225 lbs 3 times before. I was very discouraged when I got to that point again. But this time with the encouragement of sparkpeople I fought through it. It took me a month to lose weight again. Now I have lost another 6 lbs in the last 2 weeks. Don't give up regardless how discouraging it is.Good Luck!
    3236 days ago
  • SANDERSON83
    Rock it girl!
    3236 days ago
  • PUNKY100
    WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! Welcome to the club!!!!!! :-D

    I'm so excited!!!! :-D

    I can't wait until we get to 50 lost, it's going to be awesome, and I know we'll both get there!!!!!

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    3236 days ago
  • LOSINGITNOW11
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    3236 days ago
  • GRACEMCC45
    You are definitely looking great!!! Now, stop seeing 40lbs as where you've always stopped before. It is just a number. Not a milestone, a curse, a tombstone, or a stop sign. It happens to fall somewhere between 35 and 45, and that's it. It's a number, and you have many more to reach!

    I know you can do it!!
    3236 days ago
  • PROJECT_SUSAN
    emoticon I see a big difference. When you are struggling, look back at that picture! That should snap you right out of it. You are emoticon


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    3236 days ago
  • BY-HIS-GRACE
    You're amazing! I can't wait to lose 40... I seem to be in a slight slump.
    so excited to see you with the shirt closed!! Way to go.
    3236 days ago
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