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Sunday, August 05, 2012

I had the feeling that I did many exercise minutes in july so I added them up, it was in average 52 minutes a day. I thought that must be personal best for 2012 so I went back to my reports and - no, it was not. In april I did an average of 59 minutes a day... going trough my reports I find that I did not exercise every day in april and there were a couple of days that I only did ten minutes of hula hooping - most days I walked or biked about 20-30 minutes and did at least ten minutes of hula hooping. Then I also had a couple of days when I walked, hooped and biked, and one day I even reached 200 minutes of exercising...

So far in august I have exercised every day. And as my goal is to beat my personal best I will set up a goal to do at least ten minutes a day... I have also joined a challenge in the All starts hula hoop team to do at least ten minutes of hooping a day which will help.

I have learned that I need to do my exercise in the mornings, if I postpone it will not be done becasue when I come home at night I feel worn out and end up in the sofa. But I think that I will be able to do ten minutes of hooping even if I am worn out.The next week I am on vacation again - but that week is devoted to helping out at daughters circus camp. I thought I was going to be the cook but it seems that they rather have me being a coleader... I am not particualry happy over it. It is time to confess that although I am an educated youth leader (spent two years in school for that) I don´t really like children that much... it is ok to socialize with them but I don´t have the patience to play with them . What I have agreed to do is be a leader tha day they shall sew their pants for their stilts... My daughter will stay overnight at the camp but I will go home. And my work is instead of paying for her...

Today I am not eating - my sole nutrition is three servings of nutrtion drink. To do this is sort of against all Spark People advocates - it should not be a diet but a lifestyle.

It is time to admit that I don´t handle weight challenges very well - since I joined the Blimey Team and needed to weigh in every week I have been back on the binge wagon again. Yesterday I had a great binge on pork shoulder and felt like a boa constrictor all afternoon. Just for today I will stay away from all food that has to be chewed. An obstacle is that my niece texted this week and invited to her 30th birthday today - there will be cake. Mostly when I have the ideas about not eating or being very restrictive about eating I tell some sort of white lies or manage to hide that I am not really eating (people are not as apprehensive about what others are doing as one might think) but this time I think I will be honest and say that I binged yesterday and therefore can´t bear the thought of eating today...

By now I also know that it is all about my eating when it comes to confidence and loving myself. If I don´t exercise I am still okay, if I don´t clean the house or pay my bills in time, I am still okay, but when I mess up my eating... depression takes over.

I am putting my Binge Eating Disorder first today - the most sensible way to handle it would be to start with a nutritious, sensible food plan today. That is what has shown to work the best in the long run. But when the obsession strikes I am not sensible - that´s why I am not eating at all today. And I am fully aware that I may end up bingeing tonight. "Insanity is to keep doing the same thing and expect a different result"... maybe I am insane but it is a big step to admit in this blog that I intend to behave in a way I know might give critical comments... I am not very good with crtical comments...

Yesterdasy we biked for an hour doggy and me. I seems as if his paws is a little sore which is a problem, there are no acutal blisters or sores and I did put som soothing ointment on them yesterday, but I had planned to go for another hour today, looking for mushrooms but if I do, I need to go by car - and doggy really hates the car.

It is eleven in the morning - I will go for a 20.minutes bike ride with doggy and then force him in the car because he will love to run freee in the woods...
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  • SILLYHP1953
    I hope no one is critical of you being honest, I really hope not. I love and appreciate your honesty.
    2566 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10795864
    Thank you for the honesty and glimpses into your life!

    I too am a morning exerciser. If it doesn't happen in the morning, it doesn't happen...at least for me!

    When I binge, even the big ones, I go back to my normal eating as soon as I can....I have tried liquid diets years ago, please let us know how they work for you!

    2793 days ago
  • LUCYLIN101
    I love the honesty in your blog. I hope that the non chewing meals will be satisfying enough for you today and that the birthday party goes well. I will be sending positive vibes your way!
    2793 days ago
    Hula hooping sounds like a blast! I will have to look into this activity!
    2793 days ago
    I suffer from mindless eating , have found that if I keep my fingers busy
    i can not nibble so my project right now is a Rya-rug ,and that way it seems I am keeping my brain too busy to be thinking of food.

    It seems to me MEDDY that you have it under control most of the time.
    Do not beat yourself up too much. emoticon
    2794 days ago
    Ten minutes of hooping at the end of the day can sometimes re-energize me. I too have joined that challenge and it does give me a push. I think a lot of us face binges, for me; I know what foods trigger it. Also, being tired can give me a push in that direction. Things I do to curb it are to continue tracking, no matter what I eat. Vow that the next serving I go for I have to throw all of it out; and I really hate to waste food. Focus on raw naked veggies if I'm really hungry. If I don't want a carrot; I can't be that hungry. I don't know that I will ever be past binges being a problem; but they are less so than they used to be. Triggers, besides specific foods?:

    Yes, all warnings to HALT! Seems the greatest of these is tired; I should just go to bed!

    2794 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/5/2012 7:32:43 AM
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