I’m not giving up, I’m reassessing.
Thursday, August 02, 2012
I have been stuck at 138-139 for about a month now. I’ve been going to the gym 4-5 times a week, I’ve doing my best to eat well (although there have been non-tracked days, like the family reunion). At this point, I am happy with how I look, and I don’t want to feel frustrated because of a number. Is 135 pounds that much healthier than 139 pounds? I am at a healthy BMI, but when I get on the scale and it hasn’t moved, I have this moment where I feel like I’m still at 167. It stops me from seeing my awesome abs, my leaner, stronger arms, my defined quads, and my shrinking booty. It makes me feel like I’m failing, even though I’m the healthiest I’ve been in my whole life.
Here are some other numbers that make me much happier: I have 1 incredible man in my life.
I’m wearing size 6 jeans for the first time since my freshman year of college. I ran a 10:57 mile on Saturday. 2 sets of 12 reps on the Hoist machines at Gold’s Gym. 60 minutes of Zumba on Saturdays.
So I decided on Tuesday that I’m just going to maintain for a while. I’m going to keep going to the gym, but I’ve adjusted my calorie count for maintenance. I’m going to keep coming to SparkPeople daily, to interact with all my wonderful SparkFriends, to log my workouts, and to keep myself on track. Maybe I’ll find a new goal to work towards soon, like signing up for another 5K. But until then, I still need your support and I’m still here to support all of you.