Sunday, July 08, 2012
Less than 30 days left of my gym's Biggest Winner challenge that I joined. Wish it were a later end date! LOL I am trying so hard and the scale is just not moving! I took pictures and measurements the other day and I can see VERY slight changes in the picture taken in April to the one taken in July. Three months apart...and no significant, can't wait to tell someone, announce it from the rooftop, changes. I feel healthier...which is a huge plus. I am more aware of what I can do...which is awesome! I feel stronger and I feel like my body is changing...just not enough. It is hard to stay in the game sometimes when you are looking for MILEstones and all you are finding are stones.
I just wish I knew what my body was thinking!!! Does it need more food (doubtful)? LESS food? Not enough activity? Less activity? More iron? C? D? Zinc? WHAT DO YOU NEED?!?!?! I just get so frustrated at times! How can you eat between 13-1600 calories everyday and not lose weight? How can you eat that much and be burning that much just breathing and not lose weight? I should burn that many calories laying in bed and not moving a muscle!
I just don't know.
I keep plugging away just praying that my body finally realizes that this is a permanent thing and that it needs to let go of the fat...but thus far...nothing. I have lost 3 lbs in 60 days of the challenge. I have taken my body fat percentage down almost 2%...so that just means that I have put on more than 5lbs of muscle. THAT is great...however, I don't want to be a 179lb MUSCULAR woman!!! If I were a man...I would be all up for that challenge...but I am not. I am not looking to be a size 4 like in high school...just smaller than I am now.
Well, it is bedtime....