Saturday, June 23, 2012
Yesterday the swedish population danced around the midsummer pole, sang and drank a lot of vodka... not me though. I suddenly (have to watch those impulses) decided that it was time to change bed in my bedroom. When daughter started to com to sleep in my bed I bought a 1.40 wide one to have room for her, in fact that bed caused my divorce. This was during chemo, I used to wake up at night sweating all over and with a lot of anxiety. As I needed to get out of bed or maybe turn on the lights and read for a while I moved out of our bedroom this time, not to disturb hubby. It was ok with him but when I bought that bed he said that if I took it into the house it would be the end to our relation. I did not believe him but it did happen. I took that bed in and he proclaimed that our relation was ended and when should we sell the house... I have to admit that I still did not believe that he really meant this, I waited for him to get out of this panic reaction... but he never did, started drinking, harassing me and met another woman in six months... oh well, that was a horrible time, I was crushed from chemo, no work and his behaviour. The good side was that his behaviour combined with my cancer made other people react and become very loving and supportive. Among them the brother I was so upset with the other day.
I am still humbly extremely grateful for all the love and care that was shown to me during these hard times and if the father of my child had been more loving and supportive I might never have discovered how wonderful friends I have...
Anyway, daughter have not come to my bed for a year or so, she has grown to big. Time to change back to the 1.20 bed I used to have before I met hubby. It has been the bed of my stepdaughter and then of my daughter and in our latest house has been the guest bed.
But it needed a new overlay mattress and I went shopping... a lot of money and a little bit too impulsive. I have been thinking of doing this swap for a long time but the cost of a new overlay mattress has stopped me. Found a store where it was on sale - 1400 crowns instead of 2000...
One part of the action was to clean that bedroom that was really dusty and horrible... so I removed the old bed, dusted the books and wetwiped all shelves and lists and windowshelves... wiped the floor with soap and then moved in the other bed... this took hours and hours and In dismount and put beds together again took a lot of effort. I cried and cursed and screamed... some parts fell on my foot and I had to get my ferrierclub to take it apart. Awful but I managed in the end. The bedroom is finished, the other bed is outside in the hallway, I will move it to the guestroom today but I am trying to learn not to exhaust myself and I felt that I had reached my limits yesterday. I crawled to bed with aches everywhere, but slept good on my new mattress.
Today I will move that bed which means that I have to get the guestroom organized, it has become a bit messy because of overcrowding with stuff in there. I would prefer to clean some other parts of the house but have to get that bed in place and that means I have to clean the guestroom - which means that I will probably not have any energy left for doing anything else.