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I know/I wonder

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

I know many good things that are helping me to get thinner and be healthier.

I have learned many things that are reshaping my thinking. Some of them seem surprising and others I don't know why I did not already know.

Only eat when you are hungry is a duh. I can choose a lunch I like. Really!!! Somehow as a mother i had lost sight of that. Just 'cuz the kids are eating mac and cheese does not mean I have to. Yes I know that might not be the best choice for them either. I am working on that. But, sometimes you just need to feed the kids. I have a balance of mac and cheese and other more healthy options.

I don't know why I start and travel far towards the journeys end. Then I seem to go back and visit old habits. Gain a bit of weight back and start again. I know when my kids are learning something it is common for them to regress a bit. You know a baby learns to take a few steps and then suddenly crawls everywhere while he learns a new skill.

I hope I am learning something because sometimes I really feel like I am stupid or slow. To get it.

But, then again I can see some real progress from how I used to be.

I wish I could just eat cookies for dinner sometimes. In the past I might have even done that. Now I know that I will not feel well if I do that so I eat a "real" meal and have one cookie or none. It is great when I know that I really don't want the junk.

I am struggling a lot with my inner teenager who really keeps saying "You can't make me." I remember that I really do want something different. I really can "make me".

I still kind of wonder where I will end up. Will I ever get to my goal weight. Will I feel like I have arrived and will I be comfortable there?

I really need to keep myself from getting stuck mentally by the wonder and worry.
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    emoticon Pam u come so far!! Don't stress on the small stuff!
    3279 days ago
    We always gravitate to the familiar, what we are comfortable with. I too am struggling with my inner teenager and just want it all--I want to be thin, healthy, AND eat what I want. I have come to realize no one has it all. We all have to make different choices or sacrifices to get to our ultimate goals. I still believe we will get there. I have accepted that I am where I am supposed to be in this process. Even WHEN we get to our goal the challenge is not over. A healthy lifestyle if for the rest of our life and we will still have ups and downs. I have come to also accept that these ups and downs are part of it all as well. Acept and BELIEVE you are where you are supposed to be. We have come so far---much more than most! Be PROUD Of your accomplishment! emoticon
    3281 days ago
  • NANCY-
    You are not alone with this. I am reframing also. Those old habits die hard. But they will die. My thing is my son eats healthier than me. For lunch there is always a veggie and piece of fruit. He has lost about 30 pounds. Last night we went to the pool together. Setting the example and practicing what I am preaching is difficult at times... but we are all worth it and so are you and your family. Keep Sparking! You are making great changes.
    3281 days ago
    It is always easier to do the things you are used to doing. It is also easier to do the things that are familiar, comfortable, old friends. You have done some truly amazing things.

    I do know that when I got closer to goal, I did shoot my self in the foot figuratively. I did dumb things and it was really frustrating as I didn't "want" to fail but I was making failing decisions.

    Have you problem solved with the kids? They would probably be very supportive and help you succeed.
    3281 days ago
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