I know/I wonder
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I know many good things that are helping me to get thinner and be healthier.
I have learned many things that are reshaping my thinking. Some of them seem surprising and others I don't know why I did not already know.
Only eat when you are hungry is a duh. I can choose a lunch I like. Really!!! Somehow as a mother i had lost sight of that. Just 'cuz the kids are eating mac and cheese does not mean I have to. Yes I know that might not be the best choice for them either. I am working on that. But, sometimes you just need to feed the kids. I have a balance of mac and cheese and other more healthy options.
I don't know why I start and travel far towards the journeys end. Then I seem to go back and visit old habits. Gain a bit of weight back and start again. I know when my kids are learning something it is common for them to regress a bit. You know a baby learns to take a few steps and then suddenly crawls everywhere while he learns a new skill.
I hope I am learning something because sometimes I really feel like I am stupid or slow. To get it.
But, then again I can see some real progress from how I used to be.
I wish I could just eat cookies for dinner sometimes. In the past I might have even done that. Now I know that I will not feel well if I do that so I eat a "real" meal and have one cookie or none. It is great when I know that I really don't want the junk.
I am struggling a lot with my inner teenager who really keeps saying "You can't make me." I remember that I really do want something different. I really can "make me".
I still kind of wonder where I will end up. Will I ever get to my goal weight. Will I feel like I have arrived and will I be comfortable there?
I really need to keep myself from getting stuck mentally by the wonder and worry.