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Sunday, June 10, 2012

I realize what's going on. I'm not sure how it wasn't obvious before, especially as I wrote my last blog. I feel like I might be slipping back into depression. It wasn't obvious until my break down today. My break down that came out of the blue but all seems to tie back into my weight and everything else. Mix that with the way I have been snapping at everyone -- nieces, nephews, siblings, mother, boyfriend -- I realize that I'm getting close to falling back.

So my motivation? The fact that the more I focus on staying positive and losing this weight and getting healthy, the less I will feel depressed. I feel like my energy and desire to function will return if I get healthy. So, that's what I'm going to motivate myself with. I need to be all that I can be and slipping back into that slump of depression will not get me there. It will not help me and Brian's relationship, it won't help me and my mother's relationship, and it will not help my current internship with the youth group.

So, I have a choice to make and I'm making it now. I will fight as much as I have to fight to get out of this slump. I will move forward. I will get healthy. "Simple" as that. I will decide to be happy when I meet my goals. I will decide to break through foggy days and clouded emotions.

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-Monica
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  • KARENCRANER
    You rock! You're so honest! Shelly's advice is awesome. My dad used to say, "A good day is in reach of all of us if we purpose to have a good day." Until I struggled with depression, though, I didn't know how hard it was to follow that advice. I'll be praying for a light heart for you! emoticon
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  • SHELLYMARTIN100
    Decide to be happy NOW... and the goals will fall into place. Yes, one day at a time! Think skinny and healthy and you'll believe it and be it. I believe in you Monica, YOU CAN DO THIS. You WILL do this! Head up. I struggle with depression too, and have found exercise really does help! emoticon emoticon
    2781 days ago
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