GOAL - June 1st
Weigh-in and take all measurements with tape measure and body fat % tool (should be arriving at my doorstep today). Probably headed out of town this night to head up to M'town for the wedding and to meet with my mom. -- (Food) 3279 (Workout) None
In all actuality, I'm not quite sure how many calories I consumed but I'm pretty sure I was on task as much as possible. Had to do some driving and as we neared the resort Mom called to ask me if Chinese was okay for dinner. *sigh* I did the best I could. Ordered some vegetable fried rice, which I had a little bit of, and some steamed broccoli and tofu, which I then had to cook with a little soy sauce mixture to make it taste un-blah. Had a couple pieces of sesame chicken the boys ordered, but I tried to limit that as much as possible. I don't think I did too bad that day and went to bed feeling alright.
The drive to M'town was pretty uneventful. The boys were well behaved all weekend, which was really nice as I was on single parent duty since the Hubs had to work both days. Even my aunt remarked at how nice they were and responsible (they helped clean up, which shocked her). Around 8pm, as my aunt, uncle and mom were sitting around chatting, I got bored. REALLY bored. So Ethan and I headed off to see if there was anything we could get into. I eventually found a gameroom and he collected some quarters from everyone so that he could play some arcade-type games while I watched Cold Case and chilled on the couch in the room with him. (And I checked with the resort's gym about gym times and usage for the next day. Ethan is always bummed about the age restrictions in most gyms because he actually loves to work out as much - sometimes more - as I do.)
GOAL - June 2nd
Will be either traveling there and back or just traveling back after being at Mom's resort. There is pool access and MIGHT be access to a gym. If not, there are always roads to walk/run, although my foot hurts today and I won't want to stress it with a run if it doesn't feel good this weekend. (Food) 3279 (Workout) Swim or Run or Something
Well, I can't tell you I was perfect on the eating thing. I tried to be reasonable, but it wasn't very easy considering. I had a cinnamon crunch bagel with honey walnut cream cheese that I had looted (okay, I paid for it...) at Panera on the drive up. After that, I headed off to the gym with a bunch of hesitation. I may play the brave card, but sometimes I get nervous and scared and anxious. I sulked about for about 30 minutes trying to figure out if I was actually going to go down there or not. New places and people often make me very uncomfortable. But after turning around and back and around and back about half a dozen times, I eventually walked my butt down to the gym where they were super great and I really had nothing to worry about.
The lap pool was empty, which was wonderful. I got my suit on, hosed off, and then headed in for a nice quiet round of laps. I had a little trouble figuring out the length of the pool (had asked the night before and the girl there had NO idea how long it was). It looked a bit shorter than the one at my gym, but more than 1/2 the distance. Still, I tried to just keep moving. I did 10 laps, took a 12 breath break, did another 10 laps, took another 12 breath break, did another 10 laps, and then I had to fix my cap and goggles and such and my suit started bugging me (I need a better one) and I could tell my form was starting to fail and I was starting to tire. I thought of doing another 10, did 4 and got frustrated with all my equipment and figured that was enough. Then I sat in the hot tub for about 5 minutes (and THAT was when 2 girls walk in to look at the pool and ask if I'm enjoying my relaxing time in the tub *sigh* why do I always feel the need to justify my time as a "cool down" or the end of a workout so that people don't think I'm lazy...I should've just smiled and said yes...) With the warm up and cool down laps and stretches, I was in the pool about 35 minutes. Leaving the gym, I thought to ask the girl at the desk if she knew the pool length. She told me it was 15 meters, so I wasn't far off in my guessing (the pool at home is 20 yards or 18.288 m. I added up my 34 laps and came up with 510 meters in about 30 minutes and a LOT less breaks. I think I'm quite ready to move on this week with the 0 to 1650 program. It will be a challenge, but I think I can do it.
After the pool, I rinsed off, put my workout clothes on over my suit and headed up to get the boys to take them to the clubhouse pool where they were allowed to swim. I gave them an hour, did one more lap in the pool there for fun, showed both of them some techniques, and then did a few front flips as a way to begin a practice for the flip I'd love to learn between laps. Then I finally admitted to the boys that I needed some relaxation time and I got out to get a bit of sun and read a bit while they played a while longer.
After that we headed straight to the wedding. The drive there seemed to take forever, but we finally managed to find the park (which was beautiful, btw) and I got to watch my younger brother get married...which was super weird for me. As we were about to depart for the reception, my brother stopped me and said I wasn't allowed to leave because he wanted a few pictures with me and my boys. (My brother is a step-brother and his mother had custody the whole time he was growing up so we didn't see each other much, however, we have a lot in common and we got sorta close without even really trying...and his new wife has always said that I'm the one person in our family that she absolutely adores. :) I totally approve of this marriage! ;) ) We stood around FOREVER and I couldn't help but help direct a bit of the pictures (Logan had fun taking pictures though...I think he's going to follow my love of photography) and finally I said, "Are we going to do this or not, because I'm getting hungry and the boys are getting restless..." We quickly grabbed the photographer and took a couple quick shots and then the boys and I headed off to the reception area.
(Note: While we had eaten some of our leftover Chinese that morning after our swim, by the time 3:30pm rolled around and we were driving to the reception, all our tummies were growling.)
(Note 2: For the first time in a long time, I actually felt pretty and less fat at the wedding. My aunts and uncles, who haven't seen me since Thanksgiving 2010, remarked on how great I looked and I felt like a old fashioned pinup with the way I had my hair and my halter top looking dress (the straps are generally regular, but they have buttons so you can remove them...however, when I bought the dress the top was already a bit too big and my friend Andrea remarked if I criss-crossed the straps in the back it would look more fitted on the top - so that's what I did.)
Logan has better pictures, but I took a few with my phone:
Logan and I hanging out before the wedding, looking at the falls.
Logan taking nature pictures - his favorite. I love nature photography, but I prefer portraits - there is something about catching people in their most raw moments when they are most beautiful that I love.
The picture of myself I sent to Hubs at work. He said it was the only bright spot in his day and he thanked me for it. ;)
The I Do Moment
The Happy Newlyweds!
So all of this was a long drawn out way of saying - when we got to the reception and the only thing ready for consumption before the couple/bridal party arrived was the dessert table...yea, we had some. Buckeyes, cookies, cake, marshmallows and apples and graham crackers and...a chocolate fountain. I think I had 3 tiny buckeyes, a couple bites of different kinds of cookies, a few slices of apple, and then 3 marshmallows dipped in chocolate on a graham cracker...because what wedding is complete without a smore or two? *snort*
Finally the couple arrived and we were able to eat. I tried to watch my intake - very few carbs in the form of some noodles, one roll, and a few cubes of red potato. Four small sized meatballs (they had a choice of swedish type meatballs with your noodles or spaghetti style...and I split up my noodles and had a tiny bit of each. The rest was all veggies - green beans and a big salad ...oh, and a couple cubes of cheese because - YUM! Cheese! (Hey, what can I say? My ancestors were dairy farmers in Wisconsin...I can't imagine my life without cheese!) I did skip the cake and had a bit of coffee (they had GREAT coffee!) and a couple glasses of water. So, pretty good considering...I guess.
After that it was back to the condo to pack up quickly and then on the road where I drove straight home (and surprised Hubs by shaving some time off my estimate because we didn't have to stop). Where I had some pizza. *shame* Yep. I did it. I was hungry and I ate that dang pizza and I loved it!
Anyhow, even with the traveling, all the driving, the Chinese food and the other crap I ate, I don't feel like I did all that bad, and I woke up Sunday morning feeling thinner (and forced myself not to weigh in). I even noticed that my work shirt wasn't snug on me...so maybe that's a good thing.
GOAL - June 3rd
3rd - No clue if I have to work at Kroger. Need to cook, clean, do groceries and coupon. (Food) 2821 (Workout) None
Had to work. Crazy busy night. Still unsure on calories but I think I went over as I got extra munchy that night. No dwelling. Moving on. Didn't grocery shop or clean or cook or coupon....I was exhausted (the sunburn I got the day before doesn't help...zapped my energy!) and my knee locked up on me at work so that was NOT fun.
4th - Back to work! And the gym (if needed). (Food) 1789 (Workout) ST (30m)
Okay, so I never got my ST done. *sigh* Yesterday was a difficult day...I'll just say it. I was exhausted from the moment I woke up. Hubs even remarked at how flushed and just...not great...I looked. (Thanks for that, right!?) I ate well pretty much all day, which is saying something since I didn't properly plan. I was all set to go to bed early and just call it a night...and then Hubs wanted to go out when I got home. Went to the grocery store and then Arby's. *facepalm* I think I could've said no to just about anything else last night, but Hubs picked and I gave in...even though I didn't need any more calories for the day. A junior roast beef sandwich and 1/2 large curly fry later and I'm reaching for the multi-grain Pringles we just bought and mindlessly munching. Looked this morning and somehow I managed to eat 1/2 of the entire large container.
So, yea, major fail. Ended up over 2600 calories for the day, no exercise. Goal was 30 minutes of ST and around 1760 calories.
I can't change any of that. But I can learn from it and move on.
On the upside? Spending an hour on the same couch with Hubs (a rare event, let me tell you!), with my feet in his lap watching some stupid game show together and hanging out with the boys and laughing over stupid crap...well, it was probably one of the best hours I've had in a LONG time. See...I don't ask for much. Simple moments like these and the ones I had this weekend in which my soul feels fulfilled is all I need to keep me going.
I forgive myself for whatever "bad" I did yesterday...because I'm human and I make mistakes. Moving on...
5th - (Food) 1789 (Workout) 6am Lap Swim -CHANGE- (100 yards, any stroke w/u, then 3 x 100, rest 12 between, 3 x 75, rest 10 between, and 3 x 50, rest 6 between)
So far today I've already gotten my swimming laps in. It felt great, but it didn't exactly feel like exercise. I say this, but then I get to my car and my arms and legs are pulsing telling me that I did SOMETHING in that pool. It just doesn't feel as hardcore as a heavy lifting routine or a run or anything else...but isn't that what good exercise is? Activity you enjoy that doesn't feel like work!? I'd still be interested in seeing how many calories I'm actually burning. One app says I burned under 200 calories. The other? 700. *facepalm* WTF is up with that!? I need my waterproof chest strap very soon, just so I know (and so I can keep track of my time and energy expenditure in the pool). But...honest to goodness, it's been nice not focusing on that as much and just getting the laps in and feeling great about my progress there. Sometimes my HRM can actually make me feel bad after a workout - when I thought it felt great and then look down to see I didn't burn hardly any calories ...can be a major buzzkill. So maybe I'll stick to working out without it right now (can't afford it anyhow) and just enjoy this time in the pool working on conditioning myself to swim a mile. I'll worry about the calorie burn later.
Gotta stay on task today with the food and I'll be all set. Grocery shopping at lunch yesterday has me with a fridge/freezer of healthy choices for the week here at work.
Ate fine at work, and then everything (once again) fell apart at dinner time. This is SO hard it hurts sometimes. Dinner wasn't done as planned (should've never left Hubs responsible) and we gave in and did Mexican and I ate cheaply instead of sensibly, which is sometimes the price I have to pay. I did not, however, need to finish off the pint of Chunky Monkey I had in the fridge...but I did - because apparently I friggin' hate myself lately. *sigh* Felt sick the rest of the night...go figure.
Consumed about 2960 calories. Great! Flipping great! *bangs head on desk repeatedly*
6th - (Food) 1789 (Workout) ST (30m)
Still not a good day calorie-wise...but I did get my ST workout in. I'll have to alter that 30 minutes to 25 as I can't do any more than 25 minutes on my lunch break and still get back to work on time. The only upside is the walk there and back (which I don't count) probably burns a few extra calories as well.
Fell apart again when I got home. Trying to find ways to readjust my eating so I'm not so famished when I get home.
7th - (Food) 1789 (Workout) 6am Lap Swim -CHANGE- (100 yards, any stroke w/u, then 3 x 100, rest 12 between, 3 x 75, rest 10 between, and 3 x 50, rest 6 between)
Found out my pool is 25 meters...maybe. No one has any clue on anything really, and it was stressing me out yesterday. I've decided I don't much care because I'm not training for any distance event, just doing it for me - so let's just call it 25 meters and have a good life, mmkay? Did realize this week that swimming makes me REALLY hungry really quickly. Most workouts I don't start to notice until about 30-45 minutes after I leave the gym. Swimming? As soon as I'm halfway through with my shower my tummy is GROWLING at me! *lol*
Trying to figure out my body this week calorie wise to see whether it's mental or physical that I keep wanting to pound food when I get home at night. I do know that I need to find some sweet recipes as I keep thinking I need something sweet after dinner. If I plan right, I should be able to work in dessert now and again and not screw the whole thing up...I just have to find the right ways of doing that.
Time for me to get back on plan IMMEDIATELY, no matter what happened this weekend! I'm downing a shake for my breakfast this morning as I woke up late and didn't have time or energy for anything else. Spinach, mixed fruit, a bit of unsweetened vanilla almond milk, a bit of chocolate peppermint stick soy milk, a scoop of vanilla whey and a bit of sweetener (not needed next time...I added the whey as an afterthought, but I think the taste of it PLUS the Truvia really makes it too sweet).
I have to work Sun-Sat this week and then I'm off next Sunday to DC for a week, so, yeah, things are going to get crazy. Going out to dinner with another bestie tonight, so I really need to think on where I can go that won't break the calorie (or budget) bank. Also going to have to get to bed early tonight so I can get up early for laps in the AM. No lap time at my favorite lap pool AFTER work tomorrow as they have a water aerobics class scheduled. I could switch workouts to accommodate, but not today as I didn't bring my suit...so, yeah...I need to be up EARLY tomorrow!
I plan on going to the gym at lunch today to get my ST in, but I don't have any food so I might need to rework that or something. *shrug* No clue. Worse comes to worse - I can do pushups and crunches and planks and burpees tonight at the house before bed.
And, just cause, here's a picture of my Tiggy girl, who was so glad I was home on Sunday for a bit. ;)
Ain't she pretty? ;)