A new day
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Here is it,,,June is upon us,,,summer in the air. And all my plans and good intentions of being where I want to be by now have come and gone, unfulfilled. I made promises to myself, and to others, and have not come through on them. I talk a good talk, but my actions have fallen short.
I wish I really, truly understood my brain. How can I want something so badly, and yet keep doing the very opposite of what will get me what I want? It is truly a mystery to me. Am I punishing myself? Do I feel I am not worthy? Am I afraid to let myself look good? What? What is it? Is the lure of some food just so irresistible? I mean, that is part of it,,,sure, we all love junk food. It tastes good. But if I know it is not good for me, and it will not help me to get to where I want to be, shouldn't I have the willpower to just say NO?? I have done it in the past. Why can't I do it now?
The only thing I can control in this whole wide world is what I eat. And I am the ONLY person who can control what I eat. So, how do I reprogram my brain? What worked in the past....
Tracking. Ah yes. Writing it all down. No matter what. It worked before.
Let's try that. Starting today.