Thursday, May 31, 2012
I have been in a big panic about food for a while now. I feel frantic to eat anything & I can't seem to get enough. Part of me is yelling, "eat it now, you won't let me have it later!!!" I have gained 5 pounds along with it. Who is that voice? Where is the voice of the inner healthy person? How do I get her back & how do I soothe the frantic, inconsolable person? I'm terrified to have to go back to the plus sized store again. I worked so hard to get out of there.
My exercise is fine: I have been working in the garden like a fiend! I used to count shovels of earth turned over & would try to do ten at a time. Now, I can do fifty, no problem. Yesterday, I worked for 5 hours straight & when I got home, it stung to touch the keyboard.
My brainstorm of ideas so far:
Plan my food, well in advance.
Shop for the plan.
Schedule in the crap that I'm worried about.
Make some new motivation posters.
Set aside grocery money so I know exactly where it will come from.
Does anyone else experience the frantic, must have it now feeling?
What do you do with it? What do you think?