Back at Starting weight!!
Friday, May 25, 2012
I decided to weigh myself today even though it wasn't an official weigh in day. BAD news!!! I'm back at my starting weight. Immediately I sat down and wrote all the food that I ate today down. I made some really bad choices and I have a feeling I've been doing that quite a bit! So I decided that even if I don't track my food on here I will start writing down what I eat in my own personal journal.
I'm so disapointed in myself. I know how to eat good from the last time I was on this website. I know how to control my portions and yet I don't seem to be doing it. I'm so upset right now. My goal was to lose 2-3lbs by June 4th and yet I've gained 3lbs in a week. How I could be so unthinking I have no idea! I'm trying not to get down on myself but I know that it is my fault. I know what to do to lose weight. I know the good and bad and yet I haven't been doing it. I thought I was but apparently I wasn't.
It is time to get down and dirty. I know I'm exercising enough. I average 30 to 45 minutes a day. I do strength training. Now it is time to really watch what I eat!! I want to be healthy! I want to lose weight and by God I'm going to do it. I'm sick of looking at my body in disgust! I'm sick of seeing all my trouble spots and then looking at pictures of people who are in shape and thinking, "that will never be me!"
Right now I'm letting everyone know, along with myself, that it will be ME!!! I will have that body that people look at and say I wish I was that fit and healthy. I will have the control to get where I want to be. I will achieve the goals I set out on this website! I want it and I will get it!!! I will be an inspiration to others with weight issues, health issues, and self-esteem issues. I will sit straighter and be proud of myself!!!
No one will stand in my way, not even myself!!!