This blog is long - catching up with things that have been happening, plus a rant at the end you can skip if you want...
First of all...I had a wonderful weekend. I spent Friday and Saturday baking and cleaning in preparation for my daughter's bridal shower. I made shortbread (my great-grandmother's recipe), peach scones, plain scones (recipe from the Savoy Hotel in London-excellent), English Tea cakes and coconut macaroons. All items were raved about at the shower. We will be making these for the wedding.
Also, on Saturday my husband and I got the first load of paving stones to make a raised flower bed.
I also made 3 muslin bridesmaid bodices. It has been a challenge. The girls measurements on the pattern end up making the dress too big and making the dress according to their size they buy ends up being too small. So, I am fitting them to muslin then making the dress. I fitted two bridesmaids after the shower. Now I can start on their dresses.
Midnight, Sat night, my son called to let us know that they were at the hospital because his wife was in pre-term labor. She was having hard contractions every 3 minutes. She isn't due until July 5th. The doctors were able to stop the labor - Praise the Lord! She was at the shower yesterday, tired, but feeling okay.
Now, for my rant....
I have been playing around with 5 or so lbs for the last 6 months or so. I do well, but I just can't seem to break that 220 mark. I get there and then I have a big gain. Weekends seem to do me in - I had a 6 lb gain this weekend. Yuck!! I know I can get it off, but I am so frustrated!!! I do well with my exercise, but I struggle with my eating (mainly snacking). I just can't seem to decide on an eating plan. I read something ie South Beach, Flat Belly Diet etc, it sounds good, but when I look at the menus it just doesn't seem to work. My husband is a very finicky eater and it is hard to make two meals - one for him and one for me. So I just make my standard. I have tried many new recipes most of which he doesn't like, so I kinda give up when it comes to cooking something new. I know, I know, I just need to decide on what to do and how to do it...but then my perfectionist tendency comes into play and I get frustrated and I don't do a thing. Like this morning...I had decided (in the shower) that I was going to go on the Atkins Induction for 2 weeks. I get down to the kitchen ... it is cold and rainy, so oatmeal sounds good. I cave in and make steel cut oats (still a healthy choice), but I eat 2 servings. I got to do something. I am so frustrated with myself. Why oh why do I do this??? I know what I should do, but then do the opposite or nothing at all. I know it is my food intake that is the problem. If I even look at a carb it seems it goes right to my hips.
I know this weekend did me in...we had lasagne for Friday night supper (pasta is a no-no for me - I always gain when I do), all the shower goodies, then pizza for Sunday supper. Plus no formal exercise. My main exercise this weekend was moving those rocks.
I gotta lose this weight. I so want to lose 15 lbs by the wedding in August. I know it is doable, but I doubt myself. I am so frustrated. Okay, thanks for letting me get this off my shoulder. Now, to pick myself up and make a decision! I WILL start the Atkins 2 week Induction today, right NOW. Keep me accountable. Thanks.