Monday, May 07, 2012
As in...this is trying my patience and resilience.
And as in...but I'm still trying.
No, my food choices have not the best. I haven't been able to get enough water in me. I can't seem to find a second to breathe, let alone get a workout in. And my body aches like I just ran a marathon (I'm guessing).
The last day I had off was last Sunday. I have literally worked every day in May. And it's getting really difficult to stay on track as I try to adjust.
Let's just get right to it. I haven't done the best job at keeping up with it. But I've been taking mental notes and trying to figure out how I'm going to adjust and make this work.
I'm learning that some of my expectations are unrealistic.
And some of them...well, I just have to figure out how to make it work.
This seems like a huge adjustment period all around, but I have faith that I will get used to it eventually. (Or, at least, I hope I do each and every day.)
Last Monday through Thursday I worked my regular desk job.
And then Friday, Saturday, and Sunday each I put in 8 hours at the store.
And it was the first of the month, so anyone who has worked in a grocery store can tell you that we've been completely swamped. I was supposed to train in the front office (customer service desk) on Saturday, but we were so busy all dang day that I ended up training for no more than about 30 minutes and the rest of the time I spent at a register ringing people up.
I have a newfound respect for grocery store cashiers, I can tell you that.
Last night I pulled the late shift and was the very last person on the front end to leave...at midnight. *bangs head on desk* Thank goodness I didn't have to be at work today until 8:30am and I got to sleep in a tiny bit.
I do have a feeling that there are going to be no more early morning (as in 4am) wake up calls for workouts. I'm going to have to switch to evening workouts again, I'm pretty sure.
As for food... Well, I work in a grocery store...you'd think it'd be pretty easy to find something to eat there. But there's not really anywhere to prepare anything. Plus, we only get 30 minutes to buy food, cook food, and eat food. So that doesn't really leave very much time. A sandwich from the deli and a side of carrots and hummus works, and I've bought a few protein bars and am basically living off of G2 while at the store. Adjustments need to be made and I really need to work on getting used to all the standing around so that I can focus on me for those 30 minutes and what my body really needs in that time.
Did I mention that I don't have a single day off this week? Tomorrow the state is off for election day, but I'm pulling a shift at the store. Wednesday through Friday I'll be at my "normal" job, and then Saturday I've pulled another shift. The only good thing I can say is that they're not both 8-hour shifts. 5 hours tomorrow and 5.5 on Saturday. And then who knows...our schedule for next week will be out on Friday.
So, yeah...I'm struggling a bit. I was at 305 on Sunday, but I can't say if that's a true read or not. 1) I haven't been getting all my water in. 2) I've been on my feet more than ever this weekend. 3) I'm stressed beyond all belief. 4) My body, and my mind, are both confused as to what the hell is going on.
I do know that I haven't had a fresh homecooked meal in 2 weeks. And it's killing me. I MUST find time to cook...but I'm going to have to be quick about it to fit it all in. So I'll be on the hunt for quick and healthy recipes.
we'll see how it goes.
BTW - If you see my sanity, could you let it know I need it back? Thanks!