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Broken Promises

Wednesday, May 02, 2012

I do well for a while and then I seem to wander off from my goals. I am wandering in a direction that coupled with the fact that I am now on insulin results in weight gain. This will not end in a place that I want to go.

So this ends today. Today is the day that I do the things that I know will help me. I stop making excuses for why I can't or telling myself that I don't want to. Yes, I get sugar cravings, Yes I can choose to eat the sugar. But the reality is that there is only a few minutes where I really want to. If I don't eat it the world does not end. If I do eat it there is not a positive feeling of something satisfied.

As I write I realize that I need to come up with a list of things that do satisfy. What will make me feel good instead of defeated and really kind of "icky" inside my body when I have had too much sugar.

I tell myself I don't like to clean but really the feeling of warm soapy water is not so bad. I do love the results of a clean room.

I love the results when I have crochet something lovely or useful.

I enjoy the time I spend sewing, however occasional that is.

I like to play with the calligraphy pen.

I want to learn to spin yarn. I have started. How much wool could I buy for the price of the junk I am giving up.

I could use some of the creative energy to make more creative and pleasing food. Something to think about.

I can know that it is my choice to eat the stuff that makes me feel bad but, that I can choose a better path. Maybe I can write when I want to munch. See what happens if I really pay attention to the craving. If I am stress eating that just might put the breaks on it.

If I do decide I want a treat I need to make sure that hunger is not the reason. Not that I should eat when I am not hungry but, I should not eat sugar first when I am hungry.

I am tired of the creep the wrong direction on the scale. I want to prove to myself and my doctor that I can choose healthy foods that help me lose weight.

Here I am watch me go. Thanks to all that come with me.
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  • TEDYBEAR2838
    There ya go. Great list.

    3318 days ago
    I know that feeling, m'dear--been on insulin for years now! LOL

    You're right about it not being the sugar necessarily but being the why and when we make those choices...


    I do believe you're right on track as well with how to fix this issue for yourself--finding the reasons for what we do when we do what we shouldn't... you are digging out the root instead of just chopping at the tips!

    It's a good time of year for gardening, huh! LOL

    You're in good company-- emoticon
    3322 days ago
    Yup, in the same boat. I need to keep mindful. I think my body is changing and I want to rebel rather than adapt. Very frustrating. But there are many things that I love to do, eat and appreciate that I have forgotten. For now I need to be outside every day. I have some things in process (like playing the harp) that I'm hoping will help me develop some new healthy routines. It's a journey and I have to recognize I am no longer on the same path because of my health issues. Things have changed. Good luck. You have done amazing things and will contine to do so even if you don't like it all the time. It is time to grow up. We can do it together! Justyna
    3322 days ago
  • JAN1031
    You can do this Pam, we all have faith in you and know you will do it. emoticon emoticon
    3322 days ago
    I find the longer I go without eating sugar, the less I miss it. It's just getting through those first few days that is so hard.
    3329 days ago
  • NANCY-
    Sometimes I think it is a test to see if we notice what impact our choices are having on our body. You are right about it being your choice, you are the one with the power. You are one determined lady and you will succeed.
    3329 days ago
    Time to stand strong and make the change
    3329 days ago
    Pam we will do this!! Together!! emoticon
    3330 days ago
    Don't forget exercise - my #1 'secret' to stay out of the kitchen and do something good for myself. It helps your body, helps your cravings, helps your mood.
    Win win in my book.
    Wishing you much success.
    3330 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6232784
    I'm right there with you.... emoticon Plan your goals!
    3330 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12310074
    I wish you luck!!! emoticon
    3330 days ago
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