It's the little things.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
It's so hard for me to see the progress I've made when I look in the mirror every morning. Even pictures, I feel, don't adequately reflect the change in numbers I've seen on the scale and tape measurer. Maybe it's because I was so embarrassed and aware of how awful I looked before I started losing weight, that I never, ever took pictures of myself unless they were from the neck up. Even then, I hardly ever took a picture of myself... very unlike myself during my freshman and sophomore years of college before the massive 40 lbs gain in weight. I also did an okay job camouflaging JUST how bad the weight gain had become.
So since it's hard for me to see how I've changed, I've had to resort to finding happiness and feeling progress in other ways. My rings are now a size and a half too big. My shoes are loose. I can easily slide between my students' desks. I'm not afraid to be in "full length" pictures with my friends. I look forward to shopping to see if I've dropped another size (I've dropped 3!). I'm putting back on clothes I haven't worn since high school. I still have another 20 lbs to lose, but now that I'm more than half way through, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It may take me the rest of the year to lose the weight, but I am excited to see what other small ways my life changes.