Now vs. Then
Monday, April 16, 2012
I was reflecting this weekend on where I was in my life last time I was really active on Spark People vs. where I am now.
I’m older, hopefully a little wiser, and with a lot more success under my belt than I had then.
In 2006, when I lost about 20 pounds in 6 months religiously using SP, this was about the only thing I had going for me. I was 24, I lived with my parents, had dropped out of University twice and was working part-time at a nice job with no growth prospects. I was in debt up to my eyeballs and had no idea what I wanted from life.
When I was laid off the part-time job in October that year I pretty much stopped working out and later stopped tracking my food. I was eating pretty restrictively and not really sustainably, so even those “good habits” I had formed fell away as I thought about them less.
A lot of things happened after that. I would count 2007 as a year of absolute flux. I moved in with my then boyfriend (now husband), I lost both my grandmothers; I totaled my car; and the dog my parents got when I was in high school died. It was a really tough year! In 2008 my boyfriend was laid off from his job and started law school. I was working steadily and taking some community college classes to finish my business degree. It was mostly a year of stasis. No real progress, but no big setbacks.
In early 2009 I was laid off from my administrative position just a few days before I happened to start a weekend accounting course at the local community college. I LOVED the class! And the instructor wasa local CPA, he encouraged me to look into the accounting program at the local state university, where his daughter had recently graduated from. I started the program in June and took two years to get my degree in accounting. While doing this I discovered something I am really good at. I wasn’t making much (any) money but I was gaining confidence and experience.
In 2011 I graduated cum laude with my bachelors in accounting. My boyfriend graduated cum laude with his JD. He sat for the bar, I got a great job as an auditor (it has nothing to do with taxes, before you ask). He opened his own law practice and proposed, we were married in January 2012.
This is all to explain a bit how I got here. I feel like now my life is stable and positive. I can make changes and have them stick because the change in my life is balanced by stability and a general feeling of accomplishment. I’m not hanging on my fitness/weight goals as THE ONE THING to make me good/worthy/what-have-you.
I hope I’m right, and I hope that feeling able and confident in my personal and professional life can help me accomplish these goals. As well as others, I still need to sit for the CPA exam for example, and there is likely promotion opportunities coming up at my office next year that I would like to be considered for.
Have you tried and failed before to get fit? How is this time different for you?