15 LBS! YAY!
Friday, April 06, 2012
I am down 15 lbs! It seems like I have fought and clawed and scratched my way to that number. I have gone WAY off my plan a couple of days this week. We went to Shogun Japanese Steakhouse and I got there and I ate too much. I knew I would, but added another workout to my daily routine and I thought that was it. Then Monday, I asked my hubby what he wanted to do about dinner, and he goes "Mom's cooking tonight. " I thought,"Oh God, not after last night!" I told him I wouldn't go, and he got mad. Then I said I would go, but not eat. He told me that was overboard and unacceptable. I tried to explain to him how I had already gone overboard at the restaurant, and I really couldn't afford to eat her cooking because I was already feeling so guilty about the birthday dinner. He was furious and he took it as an insult to his mother that I didn't want to eat her cooking. I explained to him that I LOVE her cooking and that really is the reason that I didn't want to go there and be around it. But he has this way of making me feel like I absolutely need to do what he wants, he's gonna be hard to live with. But I said no. I was holding my ground. Then, when I got off work, he tells me that he told his mother I would go and she was gonna make me a salad, and I could just have salad and water for dinner. I told him I wasn't gonna go. But he begged me. I knew I was gonna go overboard, but I went. I did. I ate SO much. I spent the night being depressed. And I had exercised for 2 hrs the previous night and I was tired and hurting and didn't feel my body could handle another intense workout. So, I went to bed early, woke up and made a plan for extra exercise this week that wouldn't kill me, and this morning I had dropped another pound. I am starting to not look forward to special occasions. I almost want to cancel my freakin birthday, because I don't want to go to another dinner...lol. What I think is that I am gonna skip the birthday dinner and plan for a Gigi's cupcake instead. And, I don't know what's up with the hubby lately. He used to be so supportive, but he has started to encourage me to eat sweets. It's always "Just one bite, just one bite. " I told him after dinner at his mom's that I wouldn't be participating in any more restaurant dinners, or eating any desserts that I didn't count the calories for, so don't ask. He then, offers me a bite of his cheesecake the next day. That made me yell. It's like he wants me to fail....a bit discouraged about that, but happy to still be losing. Have a great day spark people.