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Sunday, March 18, 2012

WOW It has been a month since my last dreadful post. I was SOOO over the edge with myself. But with some time I am feeling better. Part of this was the "hormones" This peri-menopause game is not fun. The other part was just my mind body and spirit being so out of sync. I was feeling helter skelter. No focus and no balance.

I was also having a clash with myself.... and what I wanted out of life. I am 51 yrs old with 2 daughters who will be leaving the nest soon. (I am looking forward to this on some levels)
I have struggled for years with the question "what is it that you want to do with your life" Of course I did not want to answer because I did not feel I could do what I want because of money, children etc etc. BUT I decided to answer the question. (I will talk about it soon) But having a better understanding has helped me immensely!

Since my last blog I have given up meat for Lent As of today it has been 19 days. My children were surprised that I made it 7. Giving up something has never been my strength. Once my head hears no______ then that is exactly what I want. BUT 19 days and I am still doing well. I have had my moments where I wanted to and was close but I did not cave! FOR ME THIS IS PHENOMENAL! Do I miss meat.....only when I am hungry LOL. I completed a 21 day meditation challenge with Depak Chopra, took a class on meditation and started a 4 wk beginners yoga class. I must say that the combination has helped.
Going this long with giving up something has showed me that I can make it through a challenge. I can elect to give up something and stick with it! I feel so empowered!
My oldest who is vegetarian has helped me out a lot. She is trying more recipes and cooking them so I am happy to be of service to her by trying them out LOL!

I am reading a book called Savor about mindful eating. This is very important to me because what I know is that I do not want to count calories for the rest of my life. I know it helps with the process but I just don't want to do it. SOOOOO And it is about soo much more than measuring. I am starting to pay more attention to how certain foods make me feel vs how they taste because it all "FEELS" good going down LOL

Finally I am always talking about my lovely ladies so here they are: sorry it is crooked!
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  • KALIGIRL
    Very lovely ladies - glad you are reading Savor - sounds like it will be a wonderful journey... and
    emoticon on your lenten journey - 19 days! emoticon
    3181 days ago
  • KARENA228
    You are just the BOMB! You are in the trenches with us and that's what makes you such a great teamleader. You'll figure it all out in due time, meditation and yoga provide such clarity that it's amazing.

    YAY DIMI!

    Thanks for sharing with us.
    3181 days ago
  • VAMANOS
    Sounds like you are really taking on 'the rest of your life' with all these changes. Sometime between when I was your age and now I did some searching as well. I wonder if we all come to that at that age? My kids were on their own by then, although they all bounced back at one time or another. The empty nest we have now is kind of nice, although I do miss seeing my kids and grandkids on a regular basis.

    From time to time throughout my life, I've experimented with some meatless meals. Knowing more about the nutrition and being able to track it makes it a lot easier, so I think I'll keep some of these recipes in my regular rotation, maybe go meatless 3-4 days a week. Not being able to use soy at all or any dairy-based protein makes it a little more limited for me, but I'm enjoying what I CAN have.

    Oh, PS, forgot to ditto what the other commentators have said, your girls ARE beautiful!
    3181 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/19/2012 10:26:49 PM
  • JERZGURL_NAN
    You are truly our fearless leader - facing all kinds of challenges and conquering them - wow - what an example and inspiration. Thank you for sharing and setting the bar for us. It's a fun adventure isn't it? Tonight we had sweet potatoes and it hit me how SWEET they really are - for goodness sakes, why on earth do we think we have to "candy' them. They are already so sweet. It's fun to really taste foods and find new yummy items.
    3181 days ago
  • LETSGOPLAY
    Your girls are beautiful! Like you! I feel so incredibly blessed to have you for a spark friend! I read this and just kept nodding because I have teens at home-one is in college-I'll be 51 in May and I felt like I was never going leave the 160"s
    The team we have is amazing(and we owe a great deal to you for all the work you put in there!) and every time I feel like I am just not going to do it
    WAAAAAAAAH!
    I do it for the team!
    And...also I know I am looking forward to empty nest on some levels too....
    so-
    While they are here I am trying to accomplish as much as I can so that they are left with a good impression of me-that is part of why I am doing it and esp for my daughter's so that they know they don't have to give up on themselves after becoming a Mom-that is not to say we do anyway...just seems inevitable.-but I mean completely and that there is more to us
    We know it is still a bumpy road ahead-but we are going to do it!
    Hey then we can go shopping for a bikini! JUST KIDDING! emoticon
    3182 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/19/2012 11:00:51 AM
  • MLAMBRN
    Your daughters are very beautiful! Congrats on 19 days! You are amazing!

    Misty
    3182 days ago
  • LE7_1234
    Sounds like you're doing amazing, Dimi!!

    Your daughters are beautiful.

    Looking forward to hearing what you want to do with your life....
    3182 days ago
  • GOOZLEBEAR
    Your daughters are beautiful just like their Mama!!!! You are doing great and I'm proud of you for giving something you really like up for Lent. Sounds like you are definitely on the right path and we are here to support you!!!!!

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3182 days ago
  • MALEXANDER4
    The ladies are beautiful. We have to at some point come to a choice about ourselves. That in itself is never easy. we have been "MOM" for so long and somewhere in there the person we are just gets lost....then they leave and we are left with "what do I do now? " But we find our way. Maybe slowly at first. But we find it non the less. I went through this myself when mine left. Now i'm much better at being the me I wanted but now I have landon to help me out. In fact I hear them now....I will chat with you soon. MIChelle.
    3182 days ago
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