246 days to 52(random updates)
Sunday, March 18, 2012
WOW It has been a month since my last dreadful post. I was SOOO over the edge with myself. But with some time I am feeling better. Part of this was the "hormones" This peri-menopause game is not fun. The other part was just my mind body and spirit being so out of sync. I was feeling helter skelter. No focus and no balance.
I was also having a clash with myself.... and what I wanted out of life. I am 51 yrs old with 2 daughters who will be leaving the nest soon. (I am looking forward to this on some levels)
I have struggled for years with the question "what is it that you want to do with your life" Of course I did not want to answer because I did not feel I could do what I want because of money, children etc etc. BUT I decided to answer the question. (I will talk about it soon) But having a better understanding has helped me immensely!
Since my last blog I have given up meat for Lent As of today it has been 19 days. My children were surprised that I made it 7. Giving up something has never been my strength. Once my head hears no______ then that is exactly what I want. BUT 19 days and I am still doing well. I have had my moments where I wanted to and was close but I did not cave! FOR ME THIS IS PHENOMENAL! Do I miss meat.....only when I am hungry LOL. I completed a 21 day meditation challenge with Depak Chopra, took a class on meditation and started a 4 wk beginners yoga class. I must say that the combination has helped.
Going this long with giving up something has showed me that I can make it through a challenge. I can elect to give up something and stick with it! I feel so empowered!
My oldest who is vegetarian has helped me out a lot. She is trying more recipes and cooking them so I am happy to be of service to her by trying them out LOL!
I am reading a book called Savor about mindful eating. This is very important to me because what I know is that I do not want to count calories for the rest of my life. I know it helps with the process but I just don't want to do it. SOOOOO And it is about soo much more than measuring. I am starting to pay more attention to how certain foods make me feel vs how they taste because it all "FEELS" good going down LOL
Finally I am always talking about my lovely ladies so here they are: sorry it is crooked!