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I am so DONE with having 2 wardrobes!

Monday, February 13, 2012

It is just ridiculous for me to have 2 completely seperate wardrobes. My wardrobe for when I am UP close to 150 (size 12's and L's) and my wardrobe when I am 130-140'ish. One hangs in my closet, one is put up in bins in the attic. I am so sick of this.... There is no reason for it. I did get rid of most of my 12's and "big" clothes, but I still have some thinning out of the closet to do. I want ONE and only 1 wardrobe. Sure, I will have some sweats and looser fitting jeans for when I feel bloated or have an evening of splurging.... but having 2 completley seperate wardrobes is over.... I am done with it.

Now the reason I am blogging about this is I binged last night! What was I thinking???? I got rid of my 12 jeans.... they are gone..... no more..... And my 10's are still kinda snug on me. I cannot afford to put on any more weight because I sure cannot afford to go right back out and by some bigger jeans!

Guess what "got" me???? GIRL SCOUT COOKIES! The sweet little neighbor girl came to my door a few days ago and there was NO WAY I could tell her "no".... esp. since I was GS going door to door at her age. I bought the 3 yuckiest looking kind (no offense, lol).... The hubby and one of my kids is allergic to peanuts, so I didn't get those because I would have ended up eating them. And the Thin Mints and Caramel DeLites (I impressed the neighbor girl by telling her that was the original name of the cookie and I sold them the first year they came out..... Mom was imressed to--- she said they were called Samoas when she sold them.... gosh I am old! LOL) would have been gone in one sitting. So I got the LemonAides, ThanksAlots, and those smaller shortbread cookies. I had a few of each last night.... and I was kicking myself! They were not even good. They were actually kinda yucky. Why did I waste so many calories on that???? FOOLISH!!!!!

And I paid the price for it today too because at work, at breakfast they were serving pancakes--- the lady who makes them soaks them in butter and they are so good! OMG, I wanted them SO bad, but I resisted!!!!! I KNEW if I had one, it was only going to lead to more binging and I had to nip this in the bud immediately. I have to let last night go and trick my mind into thinking I am right back on track, in my groove, not tempted by all of the yummy food that seems to be everywhere. And I kept thinking about how I do not have any bigger jeans!

And I went for a run this afternoon.... I bumped up my weekday runs to 3 miles straight through.... ouch...... Oh my knees were hurting! I was feeling it cardio wise too. I did it in 29:17 which is pretty impressive for me I think since I still feel like I am getting back into shape. I just hope the get easier because this one was rough. I did over indulge at lunch, though.... healthy stuff, but still..... that didn't help things. I felt like I was a turtle running in slow motion.

So that's what's motivating me right now..... My Half Marathon coming up and the fact that I cannot put on any more weight because I do not have any bigger clothes to wear!
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  • HOCKEYMOM4GRAY
    I, too, have a bin of size 12 sitting in the back of the closet....just in case! You are sending yourself a positive message by getting rid of them. You are an inspiration!
    2965 days ago
  • no profile photo CD11341635
    Those tricksy girl scouts... I'm avoiding church (haha, that's so terrible) because the pastor's wife is a troop leader and the pastor's daughter and two other girls sell them. And if you want to buy from one, you have to buy from all... Sigh*
    2965 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6329775
    I had two wardrobes for awhile also. I kept my "larger" clothes in bins - just in case. Finally they made their way to a thrift store, Goodwill, I think.

    But still, I am not confident enough to buy a lot of new clothes. I am up 10 pounds and need to relose these pounds again. I gave away my 12's and WILL NOT BUY any more.

    You can do this and so can I.


    2966 days ago
  • FITCOFFEEMOM357
    HUGS!!!!!!!!!


    2966 days ago
  • JLITT62
    Holding on to too big clothes just gives you permission to gain weight. It's like comfort food, right? You think you're comforting yourself, but in the end you feel worse.

    Good job on getting out there to run! It will get easier! Hope hubby's knows better than to give you sweets.
    2966 days ago
  • FRECKS96
    I totally hear you on the clothes thing. I only had one pair of work pants for a couple months because I had gained just enough over the summer/early fall. It was terrible.

    No more. I still have a few pairs of pants that are too tight, but it's better than it was. You're doing great with your runs, Keep it up!
    2966 days ago
  • FLAMENM
    Having one wardrobe is an amazing feeling. Think of all teh space you save!!!
    2966 days ago
  • SKFEREBEE
    That sugar is a drug...the more you eat it, the more you want it. It's a vicious cycle!
    2966 days ago
  • KANSASROSE67
    I feel your pain...I have been eating lots of bad the past week and that was after having already gained 5 pounds over the holidays! I had a little panic this morning about how I CANNOT gain weight back because I don't have any of my bigger clothes any more.

    We must remain strong!

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    2966 days ago
  • RESCUE_NINJA
    Don't beat yourself up over a few cookies! It sounds like you're making good choices as far as eating and exercise the majority of the time, and that's what counts.

    emoticon on getting rid of the 'big' jeans -- I can't think of a better motivator than not wanting to have to buy another pair.

    Keep up the good work!
    2966 days ago
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