I am so DONE with having 2 wardrobes!
Monday, February 13, 2012
It is just ridiculous for me to have 2 completely seperate wardrobes. My wardrobe for when I am UP close to 150 (size 12's and L's) and my wardrobe when I am 130-140'ish. One hangs in my closet, one is put up in bins in the attic. I am so sick of this.... There is no reason for it. I did get rid of most of my 12's and "big" clothes, but I still have some thinning out of the closet to do. I want ONE and only 1 wardrobe. Sure, I will have some sweats and looser fitting jeans for when I feel bloated or have an evening of splurging.... but having 2 completley seperate wardrobes is over.... I am done with it.
Now the reason I am blogging about this is I binged last night! What was I thinking???? I got rid of my 12 jeans.... they are gone..... no more..... And my 10's are still kinda snug on me. I cannot afford to put on any more weight because I sure cannot afford to go right back out and by some bigger jeans!
Guess what "got" me???? GIRL SCOUT COOKIES! The sweet little neighbor girl came to my door a few days ago and there was NO WAY I could tell her "no".... esp. since I was GS going door to door at her age. I bought the 3 yuckiest looking kind (no offense, lol).... The hubby and one of my kids is allergic to peanuts, so I didn't get those because I would have ended up eating them. And the Thin Mints and Caramel DeLites (I impressed the neighbor girl by telling her that was the original name of the cookie and I sold them the first year they came out..... Mom was imressed to--- she said they were called Samoas when she sold them.... gosh I am old! LOL) would have been gone in one sitting. So I got the LemonAides, ThanksAlots, and those smaller shortbread cookies. I had a few of each last night.... and I was kicking myself! They were not even good. They were actually kinda yucky. Why did I waste so many calories on that???? FOOLISH!!!!!
And I paid the price for it today too because at work, at breakfast they were serving pancakes--- the lady who makes them soaks them in butter and they are so good! OMG, I wanted them SO bad, but I resisted!!!!! I KNEW if I had one, it was only going to lead to more binging and I had to nip this in the bud immediately. I have to let last night go and trick my mind into thinking I am right back on track, in my groove, not tempted by all of the yummy food that seems to be everywhere. And I kept thinking about how I do not have any bigger jeans!
And I went for a run this afternoon.... I bumped up my weekday runs to 3 miles straight through.... ouch...... Oh my knees were hurting! I was feeling it cardio wise too. I did it in 29:17 which is pretty impressive for me I think since I still feel like I am getting back into shape. I just hope the get easier because this one was rough. I did over indulge at lunch, though.... healthy stuff, but still..... that didn't help things. I felt like I was a turtle running in slow motion.
So that's what's motivating me right now..... My Half Marathon coming up and the fact that I cannot put on any more weight because I do not have any bigger clothes to wear!