My February Goals: A & I
Thursday, February 02, 2012
1. To get back down to 205
2. To think of ways to fit in exercise throughout my day, most especially when I cannot get to the gym
3. To be bright and perky when I teach
4. To spend sometime each day on Spark People remembering the purpose I am here.
5. To track my food daily.
6. To try to stay calm and tranquil
My goals are modest but I think that they must be. My husband is very ill and not getting better as quickly as he would like. I've been up in the middle of the night with him every day for about 9 days now. I need to take things easy, to be a presence in this house that reduces tension and does not add to it.
I need to be less demanding of myself.
I know it sounds like a wimpy goal, but I need to remember: when I do too much, I fail at everything.
So in February, I will focus on being cheerful. Even more than fat and lassitude, my affliction is the kind of depression that does not allow me to do anything. I will try to avoid it.
By the end of February, Feb. 29th, my husband should have some sort of firm diagnosis. Right now it's anything between the typical process of aging to much more serious possibilities. The array of possibilities is a bit daunting but at least we know that we are at the beginning of a place where many paths converge. And we do not have "permission to proceed" for a few weeks. Playing the waiting game is not easy, but I hope to do it with grace and as little agitation as possible. I owe it to him.